Wednesday, July 30
i finally got my other yearbook insert back (thanks chien and joHnsong)
and i just want to say a
BIG THANKS toshan and marie
shan: you are wonderful, period.
marie: i love you like no other. even more than john ;D
thats all, byebye
Regina.10:33 PM
Monday, July 28
lalalaa. im waiting for my bro to hurry his arse up.. im suppose to go meet LYUSER at starbucks. gaahhhhh
i was thinking how weird everything is. haha like EVERYTHING. nothing seems to make a lot of sense dont you think? like how sometimes you can be so in love with someone.. and then sometimes youre not? yea, see.. that doesnt make sense. or like.. how you can have these memories that you vow to cherish forever.. but then a lil while down the road.. you forget why you vowed that? hellah wack huh? its just weird.. like you grow and you learn and stuff.. but nothing stops changing. there is no forever because everythings constantly changing. you cant promise that you'll be there tomorrow because you dont know. you cant say you'll love that person forever because maybe.. just maybe you'll meet someone else. friendships and relationships fall apart everyday. haha i was on a wedding cake delivery the other day.. and its so amazing.. we have wedding cake deliveries pretty much EVERY week. sometimes we're booked and cant do anymore.. at that point its like 8 weeking cakes. thats EIGHT COUPLES getting MARRIED ont he same day. and we're only one bakery!! in one lil city!! isnt the world beautiful?
at the same exact time that newly weds say their vows.. miracouus things are happening.. babies are being born.. lil kids are learning how to ride their bicycles.. and the elder are experiencing REAL miracles.. while others are peacefully leaving this earth. its a good thing.. life is a cycle. you have to complete the whole thing.
but yet.. at the same time those things are happening.. people are dying. all over the world. dying in stupid car accidents
GOODNESS GRACIOUS. my brother is a stupid LAGGGER. i hate laggers. DONT LAG DAMNIT!! anyway
ppl are dying.. for no good reason. ppl are mudered.. ppl are crazy. ppl die with nothing. sad huh?
just doesnt make sense. WEEIIRRDDDD. okay bye!
Regina.11:18 AM
Wednesday, July 23
chica! take a breather! :P i miss you too =\ i hope i get to see you!! does your mom know what the dates are yet?
monkey.7:06 PM
Tuesday, July 22
I LOST A POUND!!!
Anonymous.9:57 PM
i finally figured out why i detest you so much..
you remind me of myself.
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and ive been thinking today.. (totally not related at all to what was said up there^)
why cant i push you out of my life?
after all.. you pushed me out of yours
Regina.8:53 PM
Sunday, July 20
its been so long.. since i held you in my arms.. so i picked up pen and paper.. and decided to write you a song.. things just aint the same since you took your love away.. all i have is dark and lonely days cuz the sun dont shine my way.. wish that i can find the worlds to say to show you love is real.. the words just cant express the way i feel.. youre my angel.. my sun in the sky.. weve been through hell and back together why do you wanna leave me now.. only you can ease the pain i feel and wipe my tears away.. wont you fly back home and make me whole again.. not a day goes by that i dont want to cry.. when i think of what we had and how you walked out of my life.. all i had was yours to take.. till my heart you chose to break.. still wish that i can make love to you just one more time for old times sake.. come back home.. without you here besides me my house is not a home..
i don't know.. anymore..
Regina.10:22 PM
Saturday, July 19
helllllllooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. i feel like babbling -_- because really i dont feel like doing work =( but i promise after this blog i will go bury myself in books until i can no longer keep my eyes open... siiigghhh. summer sucks.. but school does too XP so suCky. you know what sucks even more? when angela WHO LIVES ALL THE WAY IN VIRGINIA is here in CALIFORNIA, me, REGINA is going to be in VIRGINIA. rooooooooaaaaaarrrrrr. so gay. well its not final yet.. but i think when shes here ill be somewhere in the east coast. imma cry ><
dude my hair helllaahh hurts today. i dunno why. well really its my scalp.. but when i move my hair.. OOOWWWW. >< do you ever get that? haha i get it rarely.. but i dont remember it hurting so bad =( IM GETTING A NEW FACE PLATE FOR MY PHONE. wEee. dude, my phone is fucking awesome. its been in TWO movies already! charlies angel and bad boys ii. bad boysii was suchhhaa goooood movie. haha best movie ive seen all summer. wEe i want that car :D
i think ive had too much food and way too much sugar =( i did not get my daily starbucks tho =( gaahh.. there needs to be more faces. i always use the same damn ones. i found a new song today.. well ive had it forever but i actualy listened to the words today.. michelle branch.you get me mMm good song :D SOMEONE didnt call me yesterday, just as i thought. yepyep. im goOd man, i can sense youre every mOve. wEee
i wonder where youre heart is.. cuz it sure dont feel like its here.. sometimes i think you wish that i would just disappear.. have i got it all wrong.. have you felt this way long.. are you already gone.. do you ever feel lonely when im here by your side.. does the sound of freedom echo in your mind.. do you wish you were by yourself.. or that i was someone else.. anyone else.. where would you be if you werent here with me.. where would you go if you were single and free.. who would you love.. would it be me.. where would you be..
country songs are so good ^^ but so sad =( i will never forget this one.. ='[ adiOs!
Regina.10:21 PM
dood i blog more on yours than mine
Anonymous.5:42 PM
meh >| larlar larlarlarlarlarlar mymymymymymymymymymymymymymymymymymymymymymy!
im fatz0rz.. gotta start excercising..dododod.. i can eat my own stomach by flipping my stomach up..
im that fat where i can bite my own stomach fat.. im like family guy.. peter can eat his own tits.. that how he embarrasses his family .. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i love family guy it is the greatest show next to simpsons.. holy crap! and eight simple rules about dating my teenage daughter.. thats hilarious.. and will and grace.. and one on one.. and and.. yea.. those few shows are SOOOOo funny! i love it alright >| i have bugs in my stomach.. they are eating me inside out.. blood test shows that something is wrong with me.. i have some kind of disorder.. >_< i hope i die.. mwahahaha.. ill barf out bugs.. oOooOoo.. like parasites!
Anonymous.5:42 PM
Friday, July 18
its actually really simple jonathan
girls are bitches.
youve just stumbled across a bitch whos more bitter and bitchier than others. sucks to be my friend eh?
besides. the second apart wasnt even about her. well it was sorta, but not really. more about me. and even if it was, WHO CARES? i mean thats really what the fuck the whole point was about my longass blog. no one should care about my own opnions, my own feelings, my own thoughts. i mean, i dont give a shit what other ppl think. i guess i knew this shit would go down.. and thats why i wrote it. you totally missed my point man. but ill say it again, just to make it clear.. you shouldnt give a fuck about what i say, i shouldnt give a fuck about what you say.
ppl get hurt. ppl always get hurt.
Regina.11:52 PM
why is everyone so mean to each other? all this talk about each other and everyone knows who its about and what not and feelings just get hurt.. shrug.. i dunno how girls do it.. shit gets said and stuff thten later on in the future you see its so pointless? shrug
Anonymous.11:30 PM
yknow.. im all up for this "im really in love" crap.. cuz ive been there and i know how it makes you go crazy.. and blind.. and maybe a little bit pathetic.. and maybe a lil desperate if applicable..
but not THAT pathetic. geez louisse, stop the madness. daDAMN.
anyway.. you know what i was thinking about this morning? all these damn bloggers and xangas that we make.. really put you out there in the open.. and whats the point? im thinking about closing my blogger and my xanga.. cuz its really stupid -_- oOo.. you share your days on it for everyone else to read.. BIG DEALLL. like anyone REALLY cares.. unless they were part of your day.. or unless theyre like majorly stalking you. and othertimes.. its not just a daily thing.. when you breakdown and have all these feelings bottled up inside and you need to get them out.. well if you write in a freaking PUBLIC blog.. OF COURSE other ppl will read it. and when other ppl read it.. OF COURSE ppl will either give you shit for it, or totally understand you. either those two or they just dont give a fuck about you and wot read it.. its quite black and white you see. but then again.. you put yourself out there knowing it and risking it. like that one time i had a teen open diary.. and i blogged about some person i didnt like at the time (haha.. sorry xtine.. =P) and some ppl agreed and some ppl just went overboard (*COFJONCOF*) but its BOUND to happen. its the freaking risk you take making these damn things. on the contrary.. everyones entitled to their own opinions and own feelings and whoevers blogging shouldnt give a fuck what other ppl think.. unless their asking for it. so if youre gonna post comments on someones xanga or blog.. and its not nice, dont fucking say it. or say it in a nice way, because frankly, we didnt ask for your opinion. its just a place to babble about nothing when we feel like it.
and BESIDES, if youre REALLY worried about what other ppl think (which you really shouldnt) how bout making a PRIVATE BLOG? or one that no one knows about? yea, kudos to you you smart ass.
basically.. you make one of these, the whole entire world can read what you think and feel. some will care, others will care enough to hurt you. BUT WHO CARES? why would you go through the effort of crying over some ppl who dont agree with you because THEYRE entitled to the same thigs you are: theyre own feelings and own opinions. go get a private blog if youre so baby about it. either let everyone read it, or no one. dont put some shit up that will only let a certain number of ppl read it, thats just DUMB. no ones gives a fuck anyway.
im tired now. later
Regina.10:34 AM
survey timmee... haha jacked from ERI>>
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | SPIDERS
02 | MY DADDiE
03 | BEING ALONE
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THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | LOTS OF PPL MAKE ME LAUGH. HAHA
02 |
03 |
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THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | FAMILY
02 | FRIENDS
03 | STARBUCKS
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | SCHOOL
02 | BEiNG SELF CONCiOUS
03 | LIFE.. SOMETIMES.
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THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | LIFE
02 | BOYS..
03 | AND GIRLS.. HAHA
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THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | LOOKING AT COMPUTER
02 | LISTENING TO MUSIC
03 | ON AIM
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE [no particulat order]:
01 | BECOME A WIFE AND A GOOD MOM
02 | SKY DIVING ;D (ERI, I GO WITH YOU!!!)
03 | FALL BACK IN LOVE
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | MULTI TASK. HAHA
02 | LISTEN AND LIKE COUNTRY MUSIC ;D
03 | SIT AT STARBUCKS ALL DAY LONG - IVE COME PRETTY CLOSE
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | WEIRD
02 | BITTER SOMETIMES
03 | BITCHY
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THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | SING
02 | FIGURE SKATE ANYMORE - roar
03 | GO FOR A COUPLE DAYS WITHOUT AIM
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THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | MATCHBOX20 - UNWELL
02 | DIXIE CHICKS - SOMETIMES I WAKE UP CRYING
03 | RKELLY - SNAKE. WeE
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THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 | SHRUG. I DUNNO
02 |
03 |
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THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | WAIT.. HUH?
02 | DUDE
03 | IM SLEEPY
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THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | PASTAAAAAA
02 | CHICKEN GORGONZOLA SALAD :D
03 | NOAHS BAGELS. HAHA
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THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | TAZO TEA LEMONADE (ERIII!!! HAHA I TOLD YOU IT WAS GOOD!)
02 | PEARL MILK TEA
03 | WATER
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THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | MR ROGERS!
02 | BUGS BUNNY!!
03 | POWER RANGERS. HAHAHA
WOW.. THAT WAS BORING. OKAY BYE!
Regina.9:38 AM
Wednesday, July 16
lalala. this morning i went to country inn for breakfast con mi familia =) it was fun. then i went to chill at starbucks.. and paul came!! yayyy.. we had an interesting convo which was cut short because i had stupid class -_- and then after class i walked over to starbucks again because i wanted my tea lemonade (my second venti of the day) (i need at least one everyday -_-) and then walked over to tapx to meet up with trraaccyyy.. who i havent seen like all freaking summer. and then yea.. me tracy john lew glenn tim and mike just chilled and i left when tracy started smoking in my hair *COFCOF* went to art class.. and now im going to ice skating.
LIKE YOU REALLY CARE ABOUT MY DAY =) hahaha okay byeee!
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WOMAN puhLEASE.
calm yur arse down. youre so pathetic. and if i were you, i HELLAh wouldnt be talking like that. watch yourself bitch.
Regina.7:18 PM
Monday, July 14
DUDE you SO did not ASK. we were talking about it and you said you didnt wanna go and i told you it only happens once in yur life and you made a comment about me going twice -_- BUT YOU NEVER ASKED. and then you had sucha GREAT idea and ended up asking my sister instead -_- so youre just not gonna go cuz my sister isnt going at ALL? well shes prolly gonna go to homecoming, if that helps you any ;]
dude.. im like skimming over my blogs.. and i sound.. gay. haha i wanna start over -_-
Regina.10:47 AM
regina is quite mean >_< which is just not cool.. i bet yea.. nevermind.. mmm.. oh yea.. im not going and i DID ask you.. but you didnt say yes so i asked your sister i did i did I WOULD know i asked
Anonymous.8:22 AM
Sunday, July 13
weEeeeee look look look!
hehehe. the first one i want sOoo bad. the second one is.. OKAY. its sorta.. ugly. i dont like the smallness of the logo. haha wEe! i saw one for 50 at vf.. well.. i think it sed 50.. haha and i didntget it =( boohOo. but thats oka =)
mM.. anyways.. i went to the temple today.. then vf.. where i got my sunglasses fixed.. i got a 2" curling iron! w0000000t. imma go do my sisters hair later. haha and i wanan go watch T3 tonight but i doubt that we will =( i got my tazo tea lemonade again tho today :D yesterday.. i went bowling with 4 retards and tony. hehe jOn brian jeff and alex. ALEX STILL HASNT CUT HIS HAIR. my GOD. -_- imma go attack him with scissors. and I SUCK AT BOWLING. the last time i went bowling was again with jon.. and that was like.. two years ago. just about. haha yea and since i suck at bowling.. tony does too.. cuz we played two games and i think i tied with him for BOTH games. -_- hellah freaky, twins man TWINS.
i am sO tired -_- byebyEe
ps. someone needs to stop talking bad about my baby.. dont think im not gonna go over to yur GHETTO house *cofcof* and kick your fucking ass you ugly bitch.
have a good day =]
Regina.8:07 PM
Friday, July 11
oh yea.. it is SIGMUND. harharhar you smart cookie angela =P dude i dunno what to do for retreat so.. you explain to me! haha and then yea.. i have some *issues* to talk to you about about retreat -_- sigh
haha yes jon i know you dont have me.. you just HATE me. roar and dont listen to jonathan because i didnt MEAN it when i said i hope he dies =P and he did not ask me to junior prom, he asked my freaking sister. and he is SO going to homecoming. yarrrr ;D
anyways.. i finally got my camera for my new phone today! weEee. and i need to go ice skating. was suppose to today, but we're supposily going tomorrow. i went to tapx today.. its been like.. a week or two. haha im always at STARBUCKS now. tho i dont crave for pearl milk tea or coffee anymore. its tazo tea lemonade from starbucks man! all about that hehe and they opened a QCUP in PALO ALTO! haha im sure none of you care.. but its a couple blocks down from my bakery. hellah awesome. too bad there are like no asains in palo alto. haha
haha you know what i realized yesterday? (caution: sorta long and.. emotional.. or whatever) haha my whole blog about not growing up and not maturing? i realized.. the ppl that i was comparing myself to when i concluded that are THE ONES that ARENT maturing or growing up. and i just got it all wrong. i mean.. still i may NOT be growing up or maturing.. but fuck they are like.. IMMATURING! sometimes i just wanna fucking tell them to shut the fuck up and GROW UP. yaknow? its so frusting sometimes. but seriously.. i just had it all wrong.. cuz well yea.. maturing isnt about who the hell you hang out with.. or what you do for fun.. its about.. how you think and react to the rest of the world. and if youre just IGNORING the REST OF THE WORLD.. well then fuck that cuz youre screwed.
bipolar yo. haha byebyeee
ps. JON: youre going.
Regina.10:35 PM
dude.. i dont have you man.. geez i cant just randomly swear out? :O(.. fine i wont do it again.. no one blogs on me blogger no more.. BOO! :O(:O(... larlar.. no one calls me anymore.. except when regina did.. and she hoped i died and yea.. so that was a bad call cuz i asked her to winterball and she said no and i asked her to junior prom and she said no and then she said shes going to drag me to homecoming which i will not go to anyways.. so larlar
Anonymous.7:00 PM
sigmund dear. sigmund haha
anyhow jon seems to have a lot of anger contained in him.
starbucks in august :D
ask your parents if you can go to retreat! deadlines for the registration forms is soon!
monkey.8:47 AM
Thursday, July 10
i need someone to talk tp =( no ones really online. cept for my gou gou.. but hes already listening to me babble.. he hears me babble every freaking day about myself =( soorryyy. i give you a break and give the job to my blogger.. haha
but i dont really have much to say. i just want to talk. its kinda like psychoanalysis that was founded by S. FREUD. i forget how to spell him first name. haha I LEARNED THAT IN PSYCH =P
did you know.. that no one does it like family? yep.
and the littlest things make this world so great.
while the big fucked up things make it so fucking gay. but thats another story.
okay im done. thanks for listening/reading =)
Regina.9:58 PM
i feel like crap =( i need my starbucckkksss
ive been going to starbucks SO much lately. haha im there before school and after school. me and my bro just study there, its a lot easier than studying at home - forreals. and i tried the tazo iced tea lemonade yesterday: HELLAH GOOD. haha im gonna get that from now on :D
but yes i feel like crap -_- i feel sOooo tired. maybe from the nonstop studying since.. tuesday? monday? gaaaahhhhhh. if i get sick ill get UBER PISSED.
yea jons interesting huh? (last blog) yea he hates me.
and ive been hellah listening to goo goo dolls again. they used to be just good. and now, their good and their fucking songs make me sad. and you know what happens what regina sad.. SHE GETS MAD! weeeee. i think im fucking bipolar dude. HAHA. okay back to studying -_- i have so much to do. then after class i have HELLAH SAT hw and words to memorize. gaaahhh.
oh please excuse the last blog that i wrote: mOod swing. i dont even remember what ticked me off. shrug
Regina.8:22 AM
Wednesday, July 9
YOU little fucker fuck you you fucking whore
shut the FUCk up damnit
god you assmuncher
Anonymous.7:26 PM
Tuesday, July 8
my hair looks interesting. harhar. i miss you baby :[
stephanie.10:50 PM
you little fucker.
more later bitches.
Regina.8:18 PM
Monday, July 7
oooo imma tell alex about you bad mouthing his soon to be wife.. oOoo.. haha -_- LARLARLARLARLAR.. i have to go to calss now byebye
Anonymous.8:53 AM
Saturday, July 5
i called you the other day!!! and you didn't pick up!!! =( you were probably at class or something. i'll call you sometime later ;)
monkey.9:12 AM
Friday, July 4
you know.. i should just delete your two's posts =P
cuz i still dont believe you. of course, im STUBBORN. SAT word for stubborn: INTRANSIGENT
anyways. i didnt get a call from you angela =( but anyway i just changed my phone so i need to give you the new number ;] hehe im glad you like the book and no i havent read it. have you read chicken soup for the teenage christian soul? sounds interesting :D I WANNA GO TO RETREAT. hehe thanks for calling me babe, it TOTALLY made my day. roar, i miss you so much =( 7th grade math portables baby. siighhh.. the good ol' days ;]
i thought about something the other day.. but now i quite dont remember it. i remember only half of it. haha i think.. i have a hard time accepting things and moving on.. because i keep thinking that whatever is ending is the best thing that im going to have in my life and if i let it go, i will never get any better "/ one time it was suppose to be (and may very well still be i guess..) the love of my life.. true love or whatever.. another time it was PACEY. the best word to describe him is just pacey. he was PERFECT. was is the keyword though.. not so much perfect. i mean im okay now.. but sometimes i just find myself going down the path of the past..
you know what i wanna see? how to deal.. even though mandy moore ABSOLUTELY SUCKS at acting. but whatever =) lala
well imma go shower now. haha i love you guys
Regina.10:57 PM
:D sorry regina. you lose! therefore you must accept the fact that people love you and that you've grown and matured and learned.. teehehe.
anyway thanks for the book!!! i started reading it yesterday. it's really good. it's really amazing. if you haven't read it, you should. i only got through three stories and i wanted to cry :P hope you're having a fine day. SMILE
monkey.2:31 PM
Wednesday, July 2
hello there. wow i havent written in this in so long. seeeee regina..i TOLD YOU you've grown and matured and learned!! its not just me saying that. so now you HAVE TO believe us. if you dont listen to me i know you'll listen to angela so HA. nothing you can do but accept the fact that you have matured. haha. okay i just wanted to say that. because i read what angela wrote and i realized i said the same thing to you too. so i was just pointing out im not the only one that thinks that. and yea -_- i dunno where im going with this. have a great day!
Anonymous.1:01 PM
but you HAVE grown and matured. because whether we realize it or not, we all grow and learn and mature together. we're all afraid of change dear.. we both know that i'm definitely terrified of change. and i'm willing to say i still haven't accepted it all completely. and chances are i probably never will. but you know what? it's okay. it's okay because we learn from those experiences. and in august if you me and andrea get together again, we'll end up talking about all the things we've realized and learned about ourselves.. and all the things we've learned about life. just like every other time. everyone makes mistakes. and chances are, they make 'em again and again. but that doesn't mean they're not growing or maturing. so don't be afraid to be you. don't live a life full of regret. you're full of potential- don't throw it away ;)
monkey.11:24 AM
Tuesday, July 1
i was reading chicken soup for the teenage soul today.. and i came across this story of a girl growing up. and then i sat there and thought.. and thought.. and thought..
because im watching my friends grow. ive sat and talked about all my friends.. all my fellow classmates.. grow and mature into young adults. and even if they still act like a kid sometimes, they have definitely outgrew their old-childlike selves. i guess.. its kinda sad and amazing at the same time. because we've spent so much time together now.. and in two years, we'll all be going our seperate ways.. and its amazing to watch that lil girl who got made fun of all the time, turn into someone totally respectable everywhere to everyone.
and ppl have changed. time changes everything.. ppl have grown.. theyve learned.. theyve matured.. and i look in the mirror and ive seen that ive changed - no doubt. and then i thought about someone telling me how ive matured and grown.. and i thought about that.. and i have come to the conclusion that i havent.
and realizing that.. almost made my cry. almost got me furious. almost made me hit walls. WHY were all my friends getting to be better, older ppl and im still stuck here being the same girl that ive always been. i mean yea, ive CHANGED. the person who i am today, isnt who i was yesterday, or the day before. but same for EVERYONE ELSE. because the person who i am, is basically everything ive experienced in the last 15 years of my life. and the same with you, the same with everyone else. but the difference is, YOU'RE GROWING, YOU'RE LEARNING. but im not. im still the same scared lil girl.. whos afriad of change tho knows its inevitable and will NOT except it. im still the girl who's waiting for the love of her life to change back. im still the girl who thinks that things will all be okay one day. im still the same stupid girl who doesnt learn from her mistakes, causing her to make the same ones over and over again. and i guess thats why im not growing. because im just in a cycle, the same problems face me over and over and i just fuck up over and over.
i dont really know the point of this blog. and i dunno where this thinking is going to lead me. because i know even if i get somewhere, i wont learn from it. and ill still just make the same dumb mistakes, and end up right here, where i started.
i just.. dont want to be here anymore. this starting place. but at the same time, im scared to move off it. i say i dont wanna grow up, but this blog contradicts that statement. im scared, but who isnt? so what makes me differernt from everyone else? i just dont wanna be the same girl anymore.
Regina.8:03 PM
