Thursday, May 29
im studying for bio right now >< imma be up like all night.. forealz.

i hellah need to concentrate, but i cant. as usual, its because of you. you know, i thought i was really okay. i guess i am sometimes? when i dont really think about it. but then i see things that remind me of you.. of us.. and i get thinking about our past.. what we had.. the fun times we had.. the bad times we had.. it makes me just want to cry. breakdown and cry. im sucha horrible person.. i dunno whats wrong with me >< but somehow, i feel different about this. i know i can make this right. i know i can, i just KNOW it. but you dont know it, and i wont even have the chance to make it right will i?

theres just something about you babe. i dunno, maybe its because yur sucha wonderful person. i know deep down inside, theres this wonderful person inside of you - my perfect pacey. but sometimes.. you hide yourself so much that sometimes i cant see it. but i know hes in there and i guess i think i can bring him out of you. i wish. i hope. i dream.

maybe i dont love you. maybe i do. maybe im just infactuated with you. or maybe its a lot more serious than that. but right now, i just want to be with you. i just want you to hold me.. hug me and kiss me and let me know that things will be okay. most importantly, i want to know that you will be okay. maybe im wack, maybe im tripping.. but somehow i sense things arent right now. i dunno what it is, maybe your having other girl troubles, friend troubles, family troubles, but something isnt right.

why cant we just set things right?

i miss yOu. and i dont even know if you give a damn. i wish. i hope. i dream.

crazy//beautiful ily*.

Regina.10:22 PM

Monday, May 26
maths always bad. last year was just amusing. :]

i think im coming back this summer?

Anonymous.8:20 AM

Sunday, May 25
you werent there when i was scared, i was so alone. why should i care? if you dont care then i dont care, we're not going anywhere.

youve become somebody else around everyone else. watching yur back like you cant relax.. you try to be cool but you look like a fool to me. why did you have to go make things so complicated? i see the way yur acting like yur somebody else it gets me frustrated.

everythings changing. out of my control.



Regina.7:32 PM

hey jOoO!! i miss you >< COME BACK COME BACK! haha you better come visit young lady. yes, math. YUCK. -_- math this year is even worse. sigh.. haha

BLOGGERS BEING FREAKING GAY. it wont change my template =(

Regina.6:23 PM

Friday, May 23
regina!! oomgg. i havent talked to you in forever. just thought id drop in a "heellloo" x) haha..keep remembering math last year. x) puahaha. oh man...geo freshman year, just one of those things ill never forget. haha. well, you take cares in cali you hear? missin you lots. xmoowahzx

[joanna]

Anonymous.8:18 PM

Wednesday, May 21
i love my baby so much. so much. SO much. its freaking crazy how much. :] thanks for being you.

stephanie.8:35 PM

Monday, May 19
aHhhh.. i hate allergies SO MUCH. it is sOo freaking alKFJLSlkjsf. i went to the doctors today.. the SECOND time for damn allergies and he gave me some difference medicine.. it BETTER WORK. but he says if they dont work, ill have to take steriods.. which is a last last resort or something? sO. yea, HOPING IT WORKS.

i skipped first, second, third, fifth, sixth and seventh today! hahahaha.. thats the whole freaking day cept math! i was helping worrall 1, 2, 3, 5 and then i was suppose to 6 and 7 but i fell asleep in the asb -_- me and xtine on the couches and steph on a table!

i love lyuser. goOsh, i dunno what i would do without her, forrealz.

i actually dunno what the hell i would do without a lot of people. practically everyone.. cuz even though they might just be one person out of all the people ive ever met, they just mean soOo much. one being, but so many emotions. I LOVE YOU GUYS. i hope you know that "/

springshow thursday >< i hellah dunno my routines. screwed screwed screwed. spanish project tomorrow and wednesday.. hMm.. SATs coming soon and i havent started studying.. and i have my bio final in a week!

wow.. this blog is soo pointless. imma change my template soon! EVEN THOUGH I LOOOOVVEE MY PACEY AND JOEY BACKGROUND (i think ill move it to my desktop =P) im tired of this template and i found some pretty cool ones :D

dl brown eyes. no day but today

bye guys. mwAh* still miSs you.

Regina.6:38 PM

Sunday, May 11
moved from xanga - dated 5092003

yo. i feel like bitching so feel free to READ.

ive been in a pretty bad mood all week.. i dunno if its PMS or what and frankly, i really dont give a fuck what the hell it is. all i know is that certain things and certain people are really pissing the fuck outa me. its so super gay!! and today.. one thing in particular ticked me off and put me in a bad mood: STUDENT ELECTIONS. i dont want to sound like a complete bitter BITCH.. but REALLY, wat the HELL. SO MANY FREAKING PEOPLE ARE RUNNING. i mean, do you UNDERSTAND what that really MEANS?

because on the surface, it realy doesnt mean much. youre just going to have a hard time picking who to vote for. youre going to end up picking your best friend when you get your ballot instead of your other good friends - one of which might just be the perfect person for the JOB. but its no big deal right? if you want to run, go for it.

but under the surface? it does a LOT. not only does it confuse people on who to vote for, but it decreases the chances of winning for everyone running about.. A MILLION TIMES! and lets not forget, votes will be split. just think about it, every year there are a couple white people who run.. and lots and lots of asians. well of course the whites will vote for the white people, but who the hell will all the asians vote for? they're votes will end up being split and OH LOOK, the white person wins. im not being racist, im really not. im just stating how things really are. i know people SEE this, they just dont GET it. and its not like i have a thing against white people, they're cool. its just that MAYBE one of the OTHER PEOPLE could have done a better job.

because on the outside and to everyone else, its all a popularity contest. but to those few people who actually want to make a difference to the 05 class and be a part of something this great, it is MUCH more than that. and the problem with having 40-50 people run (which is what it looks like this year) is that MORE THAN HALF OF THEM are there for all the wrong reasons. you want to prove to yourself how popular/beautiful/great you are? ENTER A FUCKING BEAUTY PAGEANT. but do NOT run for office and take the chance of winning away from someone who couldve done a GREAT JOB. and you know whats even worse? half of those people running CANT do that job.. DONT WANT TO and will NOT put the effort in to it but they dont realize that now. all they'll end up doing is screwing themselves and the rest of yur fellow classmates over.

yea okay, i could hellah go on but im not going to. its just SO STUPID. you shouldnt run just because.. you should run if you want to make a difference and you want to be part of the school and your class and help make your class awesome and not for the benefit of only you, but every single classmate you have. and you should be willing to make the EFFORT and the FULL commitment to this JOB. because thats what it really is, a JOB. not many people realize how hard it will be.

time for me to go study yO. i dunno if i should go to the review session tomorrow? 9-12 hit me up if yur going. im putting everything on hold this weekend.. haha locking myself up starting tonight hehe im out. >muchlove<


Regina.12:18 PM

Saturday, May 10
my baby. amen to that. thank you SO MUCH for being there for me to rant to, explode to, cry to, etc. you've been there for me more than anyone else recently. and i love you so much for that, you have no idea. i'm sorry for all my changing emotions, i'm sorry if its weird for you to listen to me all the time, and i'm just sorry for everything in general. thanks for being there for me all the time, even halfway through sixth period :P. i love you so much. i would like to think that you are my friend. and i am yours. you know im always here for you too. love.

stephanie.11:42 AM

OMYGOSH.

YOU DO NOT TREAT PEOPLE LIKE THAT.

|this portion of the blog has been censored for the sake of yur innocent eyes :D|

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i guess thats the thing with freakng highschool though. everyone fucking changes. it sorta gets to the point where its fucking annoying and fucking sad.. because A LOT of people change for the WORSE. and its like, whered my best friend go? or who the hell is my neighbor that i grew up with all my life now? its so freaking sad its sickening. IT WASNT SUPPOSE TO BE LIKE THIS, you know? it just wasnt.
and the degree of how horrible everything can get is so freaking crazy. when the hell will the pain and suffering STOP? and when the hell will the people that deserve to be punished, ACTUALLY BE PUNISHED? its like the worst people in this world get to sit back and relax- never getting their share. wat the hell man.
haha im so bitter right now im going so crazy. but i dont care because im so FED up with all this SHIT. i cant believe have cruel people can BE these days. how HORRIBLE friends can treat FRIENDS. but i guess thats what it comes down to:

there are no such things as friends.


Regina.12:12 AM

Thursday, May 8
sorry

Regina.10:40 PM

Monday, May 5
today.. was an interesting day. i guess thats all i have to say. it was good.. i guess. yea, good.

i think ill be okay, dont you think?

hehe i didnt feel like going to 6th so i went to see the counselor with NERD and LOSER. that was pretty fun.
then after school was pretty chill. tim and dan came and we went to tap-x and christine had to lie on top of us cuz there was no room in the car. yes, she looked mighty comfy. haha and then we all started poking her stomach cuz she has such NICE ABS. ;D hahahaha.

yea, i guess today was okay. depends on how you look at it =]

Regina.11:47 PM

Saturday, May 3
w0000000t. PACEY and JOEY layout hehe thanks stephO.. iloOooovveeyooouuu

you know what. i went to go get my freaking JP pics copied and the stupid place was like "o sorry we cant copy them cuz they're copyrighted. you have to get permission from the printing company" ROAR. i was like.. wtFUCK. same thing happened to christine when she went to go get hers. i was so excited to. how gay. yea but i got JP pics up so gO here for them. siiigghh

kinda sad how this blogger died. moved to xanga. i dunno whys.. guess i like the layout there better. its sucha pain in the ass to look for blogskins cuz theyre all so flugging ugly. but i guess since no one reads this shizz anymore i might as well write and complain and shizz.

i was thinking about life today.. and i have no words. im totally just speechless.. i dunno how to explain it.. but its just.. BLEH. i dunno -_- i look around.. and theres so much pain and suffering around me.. around everyone. i was at the hospital today for volunteer.. and geez.. just think.. so many patients are ill in the hospital and there are SO many hospitals.. countless numbers.. and not everyone gets cured there.. its so.. sad.. it really makes you think about life and the purpose.. and about God. and ironicly.. the hospital is where ppl die.. and where babies are born. its just.. so weird.

the other night stephlyu brought me to her church.. that was hellah interesting. i was really interested in christianity.. and it got me trippin for a while.. but then i talked to my bro and now its sorta clear. because i was really born in buddhism.. my rents never taught it to me or even the basis of our beliefs.. but i do go to the temple and i do.. pray.. or whatever.. i dunno what id call it.. but then i also believe in God.. or at least a spiritual being with that "higher power" maybe not necessarily the God that christians believe in and certainly not necessarily Jesus Christ. but a higher power.. because i do believe in a lot of stuff that christians believe in.. but then there are also A LOT of stuff that i dont believe thats in the bible.. so yea.. being a christian for me would never work out. i also think that a lot of ppl abuse their religion.. because a lot of christians i know claim that theyre christian but really.. arent. even the "hardcore" ones.. if you strip them down.. not all of them are really as HARDCORE as they seem.

sigh. i dunno.. i really dont know. theres so many things that i dont know.. so many unanswered questions.. and it bugs me that i dont know. whats the point of living? well, i dunno. THEN WHAT? o wells. i guess ill just hold on to my hopes and faith that i will one day discover the answer.

my heart hurts "/ crazy//beautiful i wish i could turn back the hands of time. wish i hadnt made so many mistakes. so many mistakes..

i wish i was still with you.

Regina.8:13 PM

Friday, May 2
haha HERE is your template. FINALLY! :D they are SO CUTE :DDDDDD harhar i love you! you are MY BABY, donchu forget it.

stephanie.7:09 PM