Sunday, January 26
current mood:
song of the day: dont wanna miss a thing.aerosmith

im actually a whole buncha emotiOns today.. happy.. sad.. scared.. angry.. sO mixed up.. mostly scared.. about everything. i mean i was juss thinking about grades and report cards.. and im pretty damn sure i have 3 Bs.. and even with my bioAP.. thats gonna be like a 3.7 GPA? or something.. i dunno.. GAH.. i have NEVER done so freaking bad before.. its so GAY. wtfuck happened to me? how did i let my grades slip juss like that.. and here i was thinking a 4.o would be nO prob that i was defineately gonna get a 4.1 since i have an AP class.. oOo ahh.. WTFUCK WAS I THINKING? so yea.. im kinda scared.. scared because i dont wanna disappoint myself.. nor my parents.. and then scared about what my dads gonna do to me.. its been a while since ive gotten a B.. first semester of 6th grade.. and that was pretty damn bad.. the yelling and hitting.. but THREE Bs! sigh.. then im scared about.. pretty much everything in the world.. scared of change.. scared of growing up.. scared of not knowing whats going to happen to me tomorrow.. what if i die? will the ppl i love know that i love them? will my family and friends know that even tho we fight, they mean the world to me and how greatful i am for them? i was thinking the other day.. i seriously need to learn to be thankful for my life.. and that though i think my life is pretty shitty.. that there are ppl out there that would die for just a minute of my life.. to be able to have shelter, a home, to have clothes to keep from the cold.. to have a computer and food.. to have friends that care and family that love.. i feel like im being so damn selfish ya know? asking more from God when there are so many homeless ppl out there.. or ppl that are trying SO HARD but arent getting anywhere.. but sometimes it gets so hard >< i wanan go take a class where i can juss sit and listen to stories of ppl who have it hellah worse than i do.. maybe then it will teach me to be thankful for the things i have..

and then the other day i was juss thinking.. how coOl it would be if i juss got into a car accident right now.. (wasnt feeling tOO great that day) but then i thought about it.. the first thought was, would ppl care? would anyone even show up at my funeral? the second was.. would my friends and family know? would they know that they were my world and how sorry i was? could i honestly say that ive done such a great job at telling the ppl i care, that I CARE ABOUT THEM? i mean.. everyone assumes that yur friends and family know how you feel about them.. but did you ever give it the time of day to come out and say it directly to them? and does it hurt if you do? ppl dont hear 'i love you' enough.. meaningfully anyway..

heres something i found a long time ago.. i think i posted it up once before somewhere.. but its important..

if i knew it would be the last time
id see you fall asleep,
i would tuck you tightly
and pray the lord to keep.
if i knew it would be the last time
that ill see you walk out that door,
i would give you a hug and a kiss
and call you back for one more.
if i knew it would be the last time
id see your voice up in praise,
i would videotape each action and word
so i could play them back, day after day.
if i knew it would be the last time
i could spare an extra minute or two
i would say 'i love you,'
instead of assuming you would know i do.
if i knew it would be the last time
i would be there to share your day
well im sure you'll have many more,
so ill let this one slip away.
for surely theres a tomorrow
to make up for the oversight
and we always get a second chance
to make everything right.
there will always be another day to say our
'i love you's and certainly another chance
to say our 'anything i can do?'s
but just in case i might be wrong
and today is all we get,
id like to say how much i love you
and hope we never forget.
tomorrow is not a promise,
young or old alike,
and today may be the last chance
to hold your love ones tight.
so if youre waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
for if tomorrow never comes,
youre surely regret the day.
so hold your love ones close today
whisper in their ear,
tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear.
take the time to say 'im sorry'
'please forgive me' 'thankyou' or 'its okay'
and if tomorrow never comes,
youll have no regrets about today

damn.. that was hellah long.. yea.. so im sorta juss repeating myself.. but i hope that YOU (yes you, the one reading my blog right now) know that i am greatful for you.. and that i do care about you.. and im sorry for the fights we get into.. but i thank you for the impact that youve made on my life.. whether i am best friends with you, or enemies.. you HAVE made an impact on my life and i thank you for that. and especially if yur still reading after all that babbling.. thank yOu ;]

which ALSO brings me to another point.. (haha.. wata long entry =P) that life is juss to short. i meant to write about this a loOoong time ago.. but i was on the fone with angela the other day.. and it struck me that imma sophomore.. and soon to be a junior since we're already in the second semester.. and its so CRAZY. we're almost HALF WAY DONE with highschool, highschool - the years of our lives, supposeily. and what have i accomplished? what memories have i made that i will actually think back on 50 years from now and be PROUD? a story that i can actually tell my grandchildren to and have them learn something? have i done ANYTHING in the past 15 years of my life? yes, this year i will talk about the troubles that i went through last year. the guy problems, the girl drama.. but 50 years from now.. what? and will these problems that i speak of today MEAN anything? no.. they wont. i have already wasted two years of my high school life stressing over these stupid books and tests.. and stressing over guy and girl drama. okay, so maybe the books will help me in life. they will get me into a college and my future will directly reflect on that (no garentees thO) but the drama? its juss so STUPID. i am stil the same immature lil girl that cries and gets angry at the stupidest lil things. i need to learn to juss GET OVER IT. get over it, shit happens. ppl die, at least im still alive. "that bitch stole my boyfriend" is hellah fucking better than "the bitch took my life" its sad.. its so stupid.. so im trying to lighten up.. this shit isnt worth the 4 best years of my life.. i wanna L I V E them.

phew.. loOng entry.. harhar right now im kinda pissed.. cuz I CANT FIND MY MDs!!! my MD discs.. goodness gracious.. cuz im HELLAH dying for music.. and its like.. GRR! and also because my mom wont let me get new shoes.. well she will but she sez i have to get them THROUGH my sister.. -_- shes so mean to me. my mother hates me =( haha anyways.. last night i fell asleep so sorry tO those ppl who i told i would be back online and never did -_- haha and sorry that i didnt pick up my fone.. i was sleeping.. haha but before i fell asleep i was checking all my 21 saved voicemails with the intention of deleting all of them.. but i only ended up deleting.. three.. hahahaha so sad heehee im so bored.. imma go.. clean my roOm agin or something.. haha bye guys.. thanks for reading.. if you still are reading.. ;D





Regina.10:42 AM

Saturday, January 25
yOla.. haha i juss got homeee.. weEeeeee.. today was fun :D and im too lazy to put a current mood and song of the day sO shhHh. haha i went to work.. pretty late so i didnt really work.. went to volunteerrr.. then me shan steph and chien went to gO buy diana her birthday balloons and then we went to her parrrtttyyy :D heehee yea but we left pretty damn early cuz it felt.. weird.. i dunno kinda akward ya know? i wanted to stay.. but it was juss weird.. plus i HELLAH wanted to dance.. and everyone was juss sitting around.. they watched tv.. and then ppl were playing vbAll.. and when like hellah ppl came.. we were still juss standing around.. haha I WANTED TO DANCE >< so then me steph and shan walked back to shans house and we watched the sweetest thing oOmmmyyygood that movie is HILARIOUS. hahahaha.. everyone should go watch it. it was hellah funnnyy.. and then steph would crawl up in a lil ball when nasty things would happen.. like this one part this girl was stuck while giving head.. cuz the guy had a piercing.. ommMyygoodd.. it was hellah funny. =P i fell off the bed from laughing so hard a couple times.. haha yep then got qcup and here i am. haha i juss read something that kinda pissed me off.. but i really.. dont wanna fucking ruin my night so im juss gonna forget about it.

you know.. i might not mean this.. but i juss wanna say it.. but you prolly wont read it.. because i dont even think you know i have a blogger.. but yea.. ANYWAYS.. its not like you give a fucking fuck okay? and if you did, you wouldnt be fucking acting like the way you are now. so do us both a fucking favor, and drop the fucking act. actions speak louder than fucking words, YOU fucking taught me that.

hMm.. i feel better now :D haha a n y w a y s how did you guys do on SATs?! haha i hope you guys did well.. im sure you all did ;D well right now i have this humungO headache so imma go shower and then sleep.. byYyeeeeeeeee

happy sweet sixteen diana!

Regina.10:37 PM

Thursday, January 23
MY DADDIE GOT ME GUMMY BEARS :D and.. i juss remembered.. i juss thought of this a couple days ago.. and i forgot to put this in my blog.. i guess.. its pretty? or i dunno.. shrug. juss wanna share :D

its not that i left yOu.. its just that you let go..
its not that i dont wanna go home.. its just that i cant find your arms

Regina.9:53 PM

current mood:
song of the day: miss you.aaliyah

aww.. i love stephO =) haha shes my baby :D or im her baby? shrug.. hahaha o wells, thanks babe, i<3you ;D

anyways.. im sitting on my flOor.. using my damn laptop cuz my computer wont turn on.. i think the power button is broken -_- or the power supply thingie.. =( *sniffle* i cant live without my computer.. its sad but its TRUE.. sigh.. thank god for network between my sister and dad computers otherwise i would REALLY die.. cuz then i wouldnt get to listen to my music.. gosh.. i cant live without music either, i go craazy. so anyway, i have no homework tonight! w00tw00t. i havent had hw like all week.. its been pretty awesome.. so i guess you can say its ACTUALLY been stress free. im loving it. and our math quiz got cancelled today! w00t. cept i actually want one.. itd make me more comfortable with this YUCKIE conics stuff. >P but i think imma go ahead and do tomorrow nights math hw.. juss cuz im THAT bored. haha im waiting for my daddie to come back from costco. i hope he gets my gummy bears! :D speaking of food.. ive been on this really weird.. like eat-until-yur-sick-regina thing.. its hellah gay.. well.. its weird.. cuz some ppl eat when theyre sad.. and others starve themselves when theyre sad.. im the first group.. and it HELAH sucks.. ive gained five pounds since last week.. its so GAY. and im not really SAD persay.. i juss have a lot to think about.. and when i study too.. i eat.. its so GRR. i need to lose at LEAST ten pounds by.. the end of next month. possibly 15. i HAVE to. haha

mM.. okay now im on the fone and i dont feel like writing anymore so bYE :D

Regina.9:32 PM

Tuesday, January 21
i would just like to point out that i love you.
top ten reasons:
1. GO wouldn't be GO without the G.
2. you're my BABY
3. you always smell good :] wahaha i sound so lesbo!
4. you give me the most hugs teehee
5. you read/put up with my long ass notes and complainings and stuff
6. you listen to my rantings
7. and give me good advice
8. you make me feel better when i feel like shit
9. you let me cry because you know it makes me feel better
10. you're just YOU :D

so there we have it again. stepho loves you. and thats all that really matters. *HUG*

stephanie.11:45 PM

Monday, January 20
current mood:
song of the day: bumpbumpbump.b2k

goSh.. that song is sO wack. it can get me moving no matter what mood im in.. its crazy. now THAT is what i call a kick ass dance song w00tw00t

haha ON WITH MY DAY. wata fucking crappy day? but am i down? nOooooooo. nope dont let these stupid things in life drag you down. gottah be strong. lalalalallaalalaalalala. excuse me for my.. behavior i juss had ICE CREAM! hahahaha.. and i NEVER had ice cream.. its too fattening.. but DO I CARE? nOOOO. of course not. nothing matters in the world. imma be FAT! i dun care.. because whether im fat or skinny, no one will be there at the end. it juss doesnt matter.

LALALALA.. so i have a B in bio. oOoo ahHh. GREAT. there goes.. this dance.. sadies.. and any other chance i have to get out of this DAMN HOUSE. but do I CARE?! NO. because imma go a good lil girl.. and i AM going to get a 4.0 or higher GPA.. and i AM going to UC berkeley. i AM going to have a masters degree in journalism EVEN THOUGH IM STARTING TO HATE JOURNALISM. i AM going to get a GREAT job that pays like a mofO and i AM going to make my parents proud. YEP. imma do ALL of that. NO SWEAT. hahahahahahahahahahaha

you know what else is a good song? that trina song. what.. big dick dave? SHRUG. hahahaha i juss like it. w00tw00t. i wanna go crazy right now.. go out and go crazy ^_- anyone with me?! get WASSSTTTTTEEEDDDDD.. hahahaha it'll be FUN!!

my ASS hurts doode. i am SORE.. and i have NO IDEA why. hahaha yesterday i got SO bored i jumped around my house and did a couple frog jumps but stopped when my grandmother started bitching cuz she was downstairs and i was upstairs.. hahaha.. but it wouldnt be jumping around.. mMm.. SHRUG! then i went to play badminton with my sister.. hahahahaha.. that was INTERESTING.. i smashed one in her face.. OMYGOSH.. that was HILARIOUS. you should ask her about it.. hahahaha.. and we went out with 4 birdies and came back with ONE. hahahaha.. o wells..

LALALALALALALALALLALALA. crazy crazy crazy crazy..

"im fucking n*ggas in the face. the game is mine. fuck that. fuck all yall haters. fuck all yall biches. get a life. you got too much time on yur hands. its all about me. fuck that. fuck a dime. imma silver dollar. fuck yall. im out."






Regina.11:31 PM

pics finally up!! :D check them out -->

piXx

Regina.1:14 PM

Sunday, January 19
current mood:
song of the day: through the rain remix.mariah carey

village photos put a limit on their photos so i had to start a new account.. haha.. o wells.. hMm.. im bored. yaarrr.. today i woke up around 10 something.. started cleaning my room.. did my sisters hair and makeup for her recital.. then i went to stephs house.. then we went to starbucks/noahs to visit tracy and do.. math hw.. hahaha yes yes hw on a sunday.. we didnt have anything better to do so SHUSH =P and then we saw christine and daniel.. me and steph chilled a lil while.. and then we went back to her house. i had a toffee nut frap today.. its new.. it was okay i guess? hellah sweet thO.. and i wanted caffine.. so i bought a shot of espresso and added it to my drink myself.. haha it wasnt that bad..

mm.. that was pretty much my day.. got some qcup.. came back and finished cleaning my rOom.. doode.. its HELLAH clean now.. hahaha its hellah wack. ive never seen it so clean! now i want to sleep -_- i promised myself i would go running today.. but uHh.. kinda didnt. theres always.. tomorrow.. haha i think my rents are going to friscO tomorrow.. so if anyone wants to chill.. :D haha..

i promise imma be good from now on.. not that im not good already.. haha but i mean.. i wont even go OUT. sigh.. so much to give up tho >< but NO. i will be GOOD and i will stay home and do homework on friday nights and be HAPPY! hahahaha.. right. my rents have been bitching and bitching about me being on the fone toO much.. haha normally id tell them to stfu since its not really affecting my school work and im still getting straight As so they can kiss my ass.. but uMm.. problem is.. it IS. hahaha and i think i have like three Bs? "/ they are gonna kill me maybe i should go to the stress free dance and forget sadies.. cuz they prolly wont let me gO after seeing my report card!! damn.. howd i get so screwed.. haha

"the truth is i am the hindi courtesan.. and i choose.. the maharaja.. thats how the story really ends.." --moulin rouge.. think about it..

Regina.9:41 PM

Friday, January 17
FUCK.. i juss wrote a whole SHIT LOAD and it got erased. fucking a. fuck that

Regina.10:17 PM

73. what is your favorite ride? top gun :D stealth JUSTN. hahaha
still feeling the slobber?
har har har. well anyways i know times are tough for you right now...but don't worry this will change:D never give up okay?

always,
justinHO

Anonymous.9:43 AM

Thursday, January 16
im at my damn saratoga bakery again.. so yea.. im BORED. heres a survey i stole from tracy

>1. Name: regina
>2. bday: 1107
>3. age: 15
>4. height: 5'5" ?
>5. weight: TOO HEAVy.. haha


>FAVS:
>6. color: Mm.. i dont really have one.. anything.. pretty ;D
>7. food: i like pasta.. italian food in general.. yum..
>8. crayola crayon name: HUH? hahaha
>9. starbucks drink: iced caramel macchiatto or.. the caramel frap.. the vanilla fraps pretty good toO.. i guess? haha
>10. mall: valley fair
>11. store: uMm.. i dunno.. haha i have to admit af has cute clothes but i do not own anything from there, proudly. forever has cute stuff.. rampage has cute stuff.. ae has cute stuff.. other stores have cute stuff..
>12. peice of clothing: i dunno.. MY WHITE POLO CAPRIS. i like :D STILL. haha
>13. website: iOno..

>15. movie: toO many..
>16. pokemon!: PIKACHU!! hes so ccuuuutttteeeee
>17. cartoon: i dont watch movies.............
>18. music: hiphop.. r&b..
>19. boyband: shrug..
>20. teacher: CRESS.. hahaha he was sO nice
>21. place in your house: my rOom..
>22. place (in genreal): mMm.. my house

>Random questions:
>23. Do you want to get married? i guess..
>24. who do you like? ...
>25. honestly have you stalked a crush? haha i dont think so..
>26. have u instantly had a crush on sumone you just met? mm.. i dunno..
>27. are you a helpless romantic? haha sometimes..


MISSIN A FEW #S
>30. do you prefer red roses or white? RED hehe
>31. what would u name ur kids? i used to know.. but now i dont haha
>33. how far have you gone? for me to know.. and thats that. haha
>34. when was the last time you went bowling? o shoot.. last time i went bowling.. november of 01.. hahaha
>35. what is your fav. comedy, romance and horror movie? gosh i dont freaking know
>36. have you gone to restaurants only with your friends? uhh yea..
>37. what was the last movie you saw? mMmmmm.. crazy//beautiful again
>38. have u done any really cool things? no not really
>39. when was the last time you went to the mall without parents? uMm.. xmas shopping time
>40. What did u do exactly one hour ago? i was here.. at my damn bakery..
>41. where do you want to go rite this instant? home.. in my bed.. SLEEPING..
>42. what are you thinking rite now? why im feeling the way i am..
>43. what nationality are you? chink
>44. Do you want to get back at someone? uh..
>45. have you ever lied? yea
>46. have you ever caught ur bf/gf cheating on you? mMm..
>47. what would u do if u saw sum1 cheating on ur best friend? id first go kick the fucking guys ass.. and then id go tell my best friend.. and then go back with my best friend to kick his ass again..
>48. who is more important, your boyfriend/girlfriend or your buddies? see.. thats the weird thing.. cuz your SUPPOSE to say yur buddies.. "chicks b4 dicks, bros b4 hoes" right? well.. when you get married.. yur picking yur boyfriend/girlfriend over yur buddays.. you KNOW? its juss weird.. haha
>49. have u been in a fight lately? nO..
>50. do you like bein alone or wit sum1? with someone..but then again..its nice to have alone time also.. --agreed.
>52. what was the last drink you had today? raspberry ice tea..
>53. what is your favorite drink? mM pearl drink from Qcup :D
>54. do you eat junk or healthy food? i dunno..
>55. what was the last thing that entered your mouth today? my raspberry ice tea..
>57. have you ever had any foreign foods? yar..
>58. what do you think of meat? i dont usually eat meat..
>59. do you eat ostrichburgers? HUH?
>60. what is your favorite fast food restaurant? mcD?
>61. do you prefer eatin at home or out? out
>62. hows the cafeteria food? eWw
>63. have u eaten exotic food b4? i dunno
>64. do u like gormet, junk food or healthy food? i dont really like food.. haha
>66. do you think that stick thin people look good? no..
>67. Do you have a big house? its big compared to a hole. wtfuck..
>68. what is the room you go into the most? my room..
>69. do you have a sun room? nO
>70. have you been on your roof before? nOpe
>71. do you have a part of your house that u think is terribly koo? HUH? hahaha
>72. what theme parks have you been to? great america, marine world, disneyland, universal studios, 6 flags.. disneyworld.. even tho i dont remember it.. mantica.. some others.. i dunno..
>73. what is your favorite ride? top gun :D stealth JUSTN. hahaha
>74. do you go on roller coasters? love em
>75. do you think that some rides are kiddie or do u go on them all? some rides are kiddie.. but some kiddie ones are fun..
>76.have you ever rode an elephant? nO.. haha
>77. have u ever been to a safari? maybe.. haha
>78. have you been out of the country b4? yea
>79. where's the question? ...there.
>80. are there any places that you want to go to? bahamas.. cuz i dont remember being there when i was only A COUPLE MONTHS. haha and AUSTRAILIA! i think we're going next year :D
>81. do you like the rain? its very gloomy..
>82. what is your favorite kinda weather? breezy.. but sunny :D
>83. are you freezin rite now? no
>84. how many people are on your buddy list? i dunno
>85. do you talk to lots of peeps online? how manys lots?
>86. do you go into chat rooms alot? no. they're annoying
>87. do you "surf the web"? uHh.. not really
>88. do you have a pic online? yea
>89. what kind of shower gel do you use? mM i have lots in my bathroom. haha
>90. do you need to take a specific length shower to be comfortable? no.. not really.. my showers range from 2-20 minutes haha
>91. do you use aromatherapy? nope
>92. do you have candles in your bathroom? nope
>93. do you like bath and body works or the body shop? bb works
>94. do you work? yea.. but for my stupid father ><
>95. what is your favorite hobbie? my anti-drug.. haha my o sister knows
>96. what do you like to do in your spare time? the other thing my o sister knows.. haha
>97. do you collect anything? not.. really..
>98. do you have stocks? no.. i will NOT play stocks.. my goodness..
>99. do you play any sports? badminton.. but i really jus do it for fun.. vball sometimes.. tho i SUCK at it.. harhar
>100. do you play any instruments? nOpe// sorta regret it
>101. how many languuages can you speak? three different languages of chink and english.. its gay i guess
>102. if a genie granted you three wishes what would they be? i have to think about that one..
>103. what do you want to be when you grow up? i wantED to be a journalist.. but im not so sure anymore..
>104. what are five things people would say about u? harhar.. i slap hard. nuff sed
>105. what kind of person are you? a bitchy one, whats yur problem?
>106. have any sibs? an older bro younger sis
>107. are you close to your family? not recently since my rents keep pissing me off
>108. do you have alot of reunions and get togethers? sometimes
>109. are you close with your cousins or hate them? i see em someimtes..
>110. who is your best friend? i dont really have one..
>111. what is the oddest place that you meet new people? shrug


>do you prefer...

>cats or dogs? dogs
>black or white? white
>cinnabon or starbucks? starbucks baby
>pretzels or chips? chips
>soft or hard pretzels? soft pretzel
>math or science? science
>rain or shine? shine
>long hair or short? long on girls, short on guys..haha..some guys with long hair look too much like girls..and thats just wrong.
>magazines or books? depends
>pictures or real life? real life
>online or phone? phone
>hardwood or carpet? carpet
>barking or growling? growling
>smiling or crying? haha
>instant attractions or getting to know each other? depends i guess..
>would you rather be a singer or in a band? band
>bsb or nsync or 98? shrug
>tennis or track? TENNIS. hahahaha steph ;D
>band or art? art
>hearts or flowers? flowers
>pastels or bold colors? pastel
>apples or oranges? theyre both goOd
>socks or barefeet? barefeet
>sundresses or shorts and shirts? shorts and shirts
>babies or todlers? babies
>golf or lacross? golf
>skating or ice skating? ice skating
>a walk or jog in the park? depends..
>bycicling or swimming? swimming
>partys or clubs? *big grin*
>movies or shopping? depends..
>being alone or in a crowd? depends..
>112. what do you think of eating disorders? its sad. its so sad.
>113. when was the last time you ate a hotdog and a pineapple? HUH?

yes.. done.. no.. cant go home. GRR..

Regina.9:40 PM

current mood:
song of the day: hold me.savage garden

i juss got home from tutor.. i really really feel like crap.. and i dont even know whats wrong.. i was suppose to go out today, but i didnt.. i was sorta sad about it.. then i juss got invited to dinner.. and i dont wanna go.. and i dont wanna hang saturday.. i was suppose to go do stuff with a meanie and a.. keyboard retarded person tomorrow.. but i dont feel like doing that either anymore.. whats wrong with me.. i dont even wanna go OUT anymore.. sigh.. block myself out from the rest of the world.. maybe if i was one of those ppl that juss stayed home 247 with their face in their books.. ill get good grades and a good future.. because thats what i owe to my parents.. i guess.. and i wont have any friends.. so there goes all that drama shit.. and i wont have to deal with guys.. cuz imma nerd.. so their goes heartache.. life would be so much easier!

yea.. if it was only that simple to juss get away.. and to not miss.. and to not look back.. i think my parents hate me.. for reals.. i think im going to cry too.. because i really do think they seriously hate me.. how could a parent hate their child? well i guess.. it doesnt really matter for them since they have their older son and baby girl.. nothing even matters anymore. i juss wanna run away.. and i dont wanna come back

my parents have been looking for a house for WEEKS. its like GOD DAMN IT JUSS FUCKING PICK ONE. i wish we moved.. away. same damn place.. with the same damn enviroment and same ol shit.. i was thinking about angela.. and i wanna go move to virginia.. maybe lifes easier over there

4 day weekend.. i want to be filled with sleep.. but will prolly be work tomorrow.. work saturday.. homework sunday.. work monday.. yep.. its great. but its okay.. because i dont have that much hw.. so ill have time to go back to the good things in life.. my anti drug.. and my.. uHh.. hobbies.. right o sister? right.

the stars are really pretty tonite.. speaking of stars.. 11775012124177457812.. 74374117654011'111731131215170111.. 17'58377312741511184.. 40124011..

i wanan sleep.. and never wake up again..

wtfuck is going on with me.. where the hell am i going.. sinking.. drowning..

Regina.6:45 PM

hello. im at my saratoga bakery..bored as fuck. i was suppose to go out today with my girls. but no. i have a messed up fucker for a dad. excuse my bitterness and my language. i know deep down hes not a fucker. but we'll just call him that for today. i had fucking tutor later on. im not really looking forward to it. at all. going to a smell house of a person who has smelly breath. and i dont even NEED to go today. for goodness gracious i juss finished my damn finals. grr. which i have all bombed like crazy. but that is okay. everything is just OKAY.

Regina.2:59 PM

Tuesday, January 14
current mood:
song of the day: a sorta fairytale.tori amos

damn.. i juss wrote some shit and it got erased.. gRrrrrrrrr

i juss woke up.. haha.. i got into the car slept.. got home.. slept.. i have no finals tomorrow w00tw00t. pe competency test was postponed til feb.. yaar.. lets go do something tomorrow guys.. or someone.. anyone.. todays lit was easy.. bio was eh -_- there was a lot of stuff on it.. it wasnt as hard or tricky as i thought it would be.. juss.. a lot of stuff.. haha gluck everyone it aint THAT bad..

so i woke up okay.. and then i read someones very very sad profile.. and its like.. what the fuck am i doing.. what kind of person am i.. i juss want to go home.. im juss a lost girl.. trying to find her way home.. doing what she thinks would be better for everyone regardless of the shit it puts herself through.. but i juss end up hurting everyone around me.. and still manage to make myself feel like crap.. i feel so fucking torn.. i dont know what to dO.. someone help me =(

im sO sorry.. im sorry for all the crap im putting you through.. and all the hurt.. im sorry that you dont even know all of it.. the things that yOu'll never know.. i told you not to fall in love with me.. and i told you that i couldnt be good for you.. look where its got us now and look where we're headed..

i think imma go back to sleep.. at least then you dont feel pain..

Regina.7:29 PM

Monday, January 13
current mood:
song(s) of the day: miss you more.bbmak, when she loved me.sarah mclachlan, the lover after me.savage garden, slide.goo goo dolls

i feel so freaking pathetic.. i have no one to go to but this damn blog.. a blog which no one even reads.. i guess thats a good thing thO.. in this case.. or watever.. i don know..

i dont even know whats wrong with me.. is there something wrong with me? maybe im jus stressed out.. maybe i need a shrink.. maybe i need a life.. or just get rid of this one..

i need a stress reliever.. i went shopping today.. that helped a lil i guess.. tomorrow i get new shoes :D w00tw00t.. then i think me and steph are gonna go do somethingg thursday.. cuz we have freaking tutor at 5.. haha and she has to tutor someone.. yea..

sigh.. back to studying or watever.. im failing my classes (failing in chinese parents eyes..) and i dont give a fuck.. its still fucking bad..

Regina.5:12 PM

Sunday, January 12
sigh.. okay so imma procrastinate some more.. stolen from tracy

Name: gina
Birthday: 1107
Any Siblings: 2
Hair Color: brown
Eye color: brown
Height: 5'5"?
Name of Siblings: winnie and garland

Have you ever...
Been Kissed: yep
Been in love?: yep
Done drugs: imma good girl..
Eaten an entire box of oreos?: i dont think so.. haha
Been on stage?: mmhMm
Had Sex?: nO
Been dumped?: umm.. once? HAHA 7th grade *AHEM*
Has someone been unfaithful to you in a relationship and gone for another him/her? "/
Gotten in a car accident? no
Dyed your hair? no
Ran around naked in front of people? uMm.. no.. haha
Choked in front of lots of people? eRrrr
Gone to school in your pajamas? my PJ pants.. yar..
Skipped Class? mm.. nO not really.. haha i went but didnt stay? hahaha i told you.. imam good girl ;]
Gotten detention? hahaha.. i used to get trash bag duty from bitch wilson.. i prolly have gotten detetion but juss dont remember..
Loved someone so much it made you cry? yea..

Either/Or......
Cold or hot: hot.. cold.. depends
Blue or Red: dependsssss haha
Rain or snow: snow
Give or receive: give
Wool or cotton: cotton
Rose or daisy: rose
Private school or public school: public
Chocolate milk or plain milk: milks gross period.
Celsius or Fahrenheit: fahrenheit
Spring or fall: spring
History or Science: science
Math or English: math
Country or Rock: COUNTRY. harhar

Opposite sex.....
Do you like someone right now of the opposite sex? yar..
Do they know? i would think so..
What do you look for in a woman or man? eyes, smile, personality --haha taking surveys from tracy is freaky cuz i always end up leaving his answers cuz i agree with them -_-
Do you think yu could see youreslf marrying this person that you like? sigh..
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? ...
Here's the picture, Your cuddled on the bed watching TV kissing and hugging, Who is it? this surveys gonna make me cry

******Friends
Who do you see most often? steph? haha
Who is your most annoying friend? CHRISTINE. hahahaha juss kidding
What one do you wish you saw more often? jenny! angela =(
Who do you e-mail the most? i dont really use email..
Who's the loudest? yea.. girls are all pretty much loud.. me shan steph christine.. yea.. haha
Who's the shyest? are any of us shy? no i dont think so..
Who are you jealous of? lots of ppl i guess..
Who has the best room? chien has a pretty cool roOm.. KATHERINE!! AhHhh.. her rooms so pretty..
Whose the most horny? haha.. i dunno.. a lot of my guy friends are.. haha
Who do you trust the most? angela.. steph.. tracy.. derek.. even tho i havent talked to him for like a month+..
Who knows the most about you? derek
Whose your best friend? i dont really have one..
Favorite friend of the opposite sex? favorite friend? haha.. thats a weird question..
Favorite friend of the same sex? yea.. weird question..
One you usually miss? "/

******* Within the last 24 hours
Had a serious talk? yea
Hugged someone? ive like been at home by myself for the last 24 hours
Missed someone? yea
Gotten along with your parents? yea
Fought with a friend? no
Cried? no.. haha
Felt empty? heck yes

********* Do you like to
Give hugs? wtfreak?! i guess so..
Give back rubs? uhh.. no.. haha
Take walks in the rain? yes
Go to the beach? love it
Watch TV? yea
Do homework? uhh. who the hell does?
Play in the snow? sure
Stay up all night talking to friend? yea
Work out? no.. haha
Talk on the phone? yea.. ive been doing a lot of it lately. haha
Go online? i dont get off doode.. haha
Kissing? wata weird question toO.. hahaha
Doing freaky/kinky things? harharhar kinky
Be wild? wild.. like last years last dance? harhar ;D

What will you do this summer? sat prep classes w00t! juss kidding


********* Which one of your Friends????
Is most likely to grow up to be a model: i dunno..
Which one knows most about you: prolly derek.. didnt i answer this question already.. or andrea..
Have you known the longest: one that i still keep in touch with? bea.. elementary school baby
Do you know most about: i dunnos
Is the smartest? i have too many smart ass friends.. GRR.. >< i gess ken..

************ Have you Ever
Been to a concert? sure i guess
Been out of state: yar
Broken a bone? nope
Loved someone so much it made you cry? yep yep.. they already asked this
Cheated on a test: yep
Run a marathon? yea.. but a long time ago..
Met a famous person? whats his name.. guy that plays cory mathews on boys meets world..
Bought something and then saw it? hahaha
Stole from somewhere or someone: yea.. prolly.. i dunnos.. OOO.. hahahaha does the gift shop count? 0:D
Stalked someone: im stalking yOu

******* Love
Single or taken? eh.. im not gonna like this section.
If you were gonna go out w/ anyone who would it be? without the complications

Have you ever had an on-line relationship? nO..

********Extras
What is your worst habit? my LIKE pms.. i act like im pmsing 247 when im actually not.. yea its kinda sad..
What really makes you mad: betrayal..lying.. --agreed
Scariest moment: i dunnos
Happiest moment: its only a faint memory..
What is your earliest memory: this time i was playing with amanda chen at fremont older and my daddie was watching me play.. wasnt at work.. wasnt bitching.. wasnt rushing off somewhere.. juss standing there.. watching his lil girl..
Do you dress like a slut/prep/snob/sporty/or just plain old: haha i used to hellah dress up for school and shit.. now its like scrubby clothes everyday.. haha

********* NOW
Where are you? at home.. in my room..
Are you wearing any jewelry? nope
When was the last time you showered? this afternoon
What color pants do you have on right now? black.. wat weird ass questions..
What song are you listening to right now? suicide.kc and jojo
What is the last thing that you said? dont remember
Why are you filling out this survey? didnt want to study for biO..
What is your computer desk made of? wood
What is your AOL screen name? lilaznmoOnlyt
What was the last thing you ate? GUMMY BEARS yum :D
What are you thinking? about how fucked up this world is
What would you really want to be doing right now? getting myself out of this misery..
If you were a crayon,what color would you be? grey
Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? "/


Regina.7:17 PM

current mood:
song of the day: all i have.jLo

did i put that song up already? i dont remember -_-

everything juss got so blurry.. i dunno whats going on.. i feel really dizzy.. like i was juss spinning round and round in my chair.. was i? i dont remember..

i wanna juss hide.. =( hide from everything and everyone.. i want someone to talk to.. but no ones around.. and i dont really wanna bother anyone.. specially with finals coming up and all.. but then i still want someone to talk to.. but then at the same time i wanna be left alone.. gosh.. did that make any sense at all? i dont think it did -_- im not thinking clearly.. i dunno.. i wanan run away. hide.. i wanna cry.. but for no reason.. i dont even know whats wrong with me.. i dont even know if somethings wrong? i woke up this morning thinking lifes okay.. lifes getting somewhere.. where am i going now?

bleh.. i dunno. i dunno anything anymore. i feel so damn lost. i hate it so fucking much.. why doesnt God juss take me away? id be one less person He would have to look over.. i juss dont get it..

and i wanna sulk.. juss sit here and think.. and think and think til i come up with an answer.. or juss cry.. cry until it stops hurting.. but no.. i cant because we have fucking finals.. how fucking gay..

so fucking gay..

Regina.3:11 PM

Saturday, January 11
current mood:
song of the day: two beds and a coffee machine.savage garden

haha.. i found out today that that songs from dawsons creek!! hahaha.. speaking of dawsons creek.. i havent watched it for hellah times.. hahaha.. damns.. i havent watched tv in too long.. how sad. anyways.. the songs hellah pretty.. :D sad tho.. but yea..

anyways.. ive been studying all day.. haha for biO. but i guess i havent been that productive.. since i havent even gone through all my old tests yet.. i ditched chinese school last nite.. my teachers mad at me my sister sez.. hahaha o wells.. im not going back next year so watever.. then me and my family went to this new desert place.. and my mom ordered this 5 dollar cake thingie that was hellah small and tasted like crap.. hahaha it was mad crazy.. 5 bucks doode.. crazy.. so are finals.. finals are crazy..

monday:
lit
writing for pub
biO
tuesday:
ta --harhar
dance --harhar
wednesday:
spanish
math

mondays hardest day.. math i dont really have to worry about.. cuz theres no way im getting an A.. so all i have to do is score higher than 95/200 to get a B! hahaha.. pretty sweet i guess.. spanish is gonna be.. eh.. cuz autran cant teach for shit but watevers last nite was kinda a sad nite.. hella ppl were down "/ or i guess.. i dunno.. and today my loser is down =( sigh.. cheer upppp!!! dont trip about it.. you'll find someone else.. whos gonna make you sOooo happy :D yepyep.. and im here for yOu, if ya need to vent harhar wells.. im out.. byebyeee (back to studying -_-)


Regina.6:36 PM

Friday, January 10
current mood:
song of the day: who do you tell.tamia

haha thanks andrea for giving me the song again.. its an ooollddd ass song.. but i love it :D

anyways.. im finally blogging.. haha this week has been soOoo crazy.. ive been sleeping at 4 in the morning.. A LOT. -_- its crazy.. but then last night i got hellah tired around 12. and i was like okay imma go sleep then wake up at 4 to finish my bio lab report (which was no where near done at that time) and then i set my clock and everything.. and i think i forgot to turn the alarm ON so it didnt go off and i never woke up! not only did i not wake up at 4.. i woke up LATE for school! GAH.. haha it was crazy.. life is so crazy.. school is pretty damn crazy.. and then we have finals coming up >< gRr.. lets go do something.. umm monday.. and wednesday afternOoonnnnnn.. and thursday tOo.. haha i wasnt gonna have any finals on wednesday.. but then now i have a pe test.. gRr.. but imma devote myself to coffee and studying for bio this weekend.. even tho its impossible for me to get an A in the class.. i will go for the impossible.. sigh..

yea so my lab.. haha i freaked out.. then worked on it all first period.. all second period.. worked some in third while our sub tOok roll for like half hour.. worked on it in fourth.. worked all fifth period.. all of lunch.. and finally finished it at lunch.. tho it was hecka crappy.. and my discussion wasnt even shit.. sigh.. didnt go to 6th.. well i did.. but didnt STAY.. haha.. but ended up going to 7th "/ happy birthday ms tsai!! haha i didnt even get to see the mashimaro we got her.. haha

i jsus wanna say sorry to these two ppl i keep hurting.. i dunno what to do.. lost and confused.. "/ i dunno, im juss really sorry.. and i dunno what else to say.. perhaps it would juss be better if you guys never met me.. but now that you have.. maybe you should juss stay away from me? for yur sake -_- you deserve better anyway..

Hi O SISTER. i LOVE YOU. DONT YOU DARE FORGET iT. *hug*

hMmmmmMmMmmm.. chink school tonite.. i think ill ditch.. haha hopefully i can.. whatevers.. imma go.. think.. or study? or i dunno.. haha byebyee..

Regina.5:16 PM

Tuesday, January 7
current mood: currently not available
song of the day: everything is you.boysIImen... just a whole buncha boysIImen songs "/

i should HELLAH be doing hw right now.. specially since i have three essay preps to write all over again.. when i have an essay to write first period tomorrow and thuesday morning.. sigh.. then i MUST finish my bio lab report tonite.. then i have to finish two assignments of math hw.. sigh.. BUT i dont feel like it.. surprise surprise.. its okay.. an all nighter tonite? anyone with me? haha..

anyway.. back from cancun! haha.. it was fun i guess.. it was HOT! YES! awesome.. it didnt rain at all!! w00tw00t.. so friday.. i went and got my hair done.. which is why it looks like crap now.. 5 days later.. haha mM.. went shopping didnt buy anything.. things over there are hellah expensive doode.. its CRAZY. i saw these hellah cute earrings.. 13 bucks.. i was like.. wtfffreeeaakkk.. haha they werent THAT special.. i can prolly get them over here for like.. 3.. haha and then my cuz bought this cute anklet for 7.. i went back the next day to get one for myself and the guy tried to sell it to me for 13.. i was like.. screw you! THEN i was gonna get a tattOo.. temporary.. on my ankleeee! i found a really pretty one.. but then it was kinda expensive so me and my mom decided to go look at other stores.. and before we got the chance we saw my dad and then we told him and he sed no =( so i didnt get one.. and dOode.. everyone at cancun has their belly button peirced! GRR >< i hellah want one NOW. but i WILL get it before....... mM.. junior year ends =P hahaha.. I WILL!! harhar.. and then yea.. saturday we went site seeing sorta.. then sunday we chilled on the beach :D got TANNED. only THREE ppl noticed tho (diana christine and shan.. PROPZ TO THOSE COOL PEOPLE! :D) and then monday we went to the beach again and shopped again.. this time we went to the mall.. which i guess was SORTA highclass or watever.. we went to zara and they had a 50% sale.. i found a cute shirt for 6 bucks but didnt get it.. i dunno why.. i think it was cuz i was upset cuz my mom wouldnt get me the DRESS! i found like a helllahh cute prom dress for 47 bucks.. and my mom was like.. its nothing special.. we'll get one back home.. so i was like =( cuz i HELLAH liked it.. but it was juss black long.. tube dress.. it was juss so pretty tho >< o wells.. imma find a hellah nice EXPENSIVE one here.. harhar juss to get back at her :D and then we stopped by guess which also had a 50% off sale.. and i juss ran in got two shirts and had to leave for airporrttt... yeP.. that was my trip.. quite boring.. too much drinking and too much eating.. PINA COLADAS :D:D:D yumyum.. i had an average of like three pina coladas per day.. hahaha.. it was crazy. but then i usually drink it with no liquor.. cuz they add HELLAH liquor to it.. and i dont like it.. but then one day my sister order me a drink for me and she forgot to say no liquor.. and like i drank it anyways.. and then on top of that i had a sip of my dads mai tai (DONT EVER DRINK ANY OF THAT.. its the DISGUSTING.. haha) anD THEN ON TOP OF THAT a sip of red wine. i declare that red wine is the GROSSEST STUFF IN THE WORLD. omygosh.. YUCK. then later that day i got hellah dizzy sleepy and HOT. red burning hot. i guess im not a drinking type of girl >< haha i got tony some SAND too.. harharhar.. and thanks for the xmas present babe! :D you didnt have to th =( but THANKSSSSSS :D

haha.. our flight there and our flight back showed the same too movies.. sweet home alabama and simone.. i cried watching sweet home alabama.. even tho it was my second and third time.. only a few people will understand why thO.. i didnt stay up for simone thO.. it looked interesting.. but i was sleepy -_-

i told myself i was going to study but did no such thing.. haha like FIVE MIN worth while i was waiting for my parents.. yeP.. i landed in oakland around.. 1130 something.. left airport.. checked my 16 voicemails hahaha and got home around 1.. showered did hw went to bed around 330.. haha yep.. OO!! my daddie got me COOL WATERS!! AHHHHHHHHH.. w00tw00ttt.. he bought me the humungo bottle.. im never gonna finish it thO.. haha but its okay! :D ralph still smells better.. but yea.. ITS OKAY!! cool waters smells yummyful.. so does giO.. tho its a colonge.. i sprayed some on me at the duty free shop =P haha

doode.. there are hot guys in cancun ;D they were all white.. but they were hot :D'' we were like the only asians there.. haha

i FINALLY got my pictures developed.. from the first and second time jenny visited (MINI GOLFING! hahaha.. and at stephs house =P) ill get them up.. after finals >< and then float pictures! :D they turned out crappy.. but lots of memories hehe perhaps i should go back to my hw now =( school SUCKS! growl.. haha my sunshine! shes so funny.. haha o wells.. bye guyssssssss

Regina.7:04 PM

ill keep this blog seperate.. i dunno if yur gonna read this.. but hMm.. here we go..

i dunno where we are.. you dunno where we are.. and i guess neither of us know where ourselves are.. and i dunno where we left off.. i dunno if we decided anything.. maybe we juss need our space.. to find our way back home.. to us or not.. normally.. after our convO on new years.. i wouldve cried my eyes out.. but i didnt this time.. and i guess its because ive realized how selfish i have been.. every night i wish on a star to have you love me.. but i cant make you love me.. no one can.. and its not right to wish for it either.. and i tell myself that i juss want you to be happy.. which is true.. but then i try everything in my power to make you stay with me.. even down to pity.. its sad.. but thats how much i wanted it.. and now i realize.. i cant do that anymore.. its not fair for yOu.. so i am sorry for being selfish.. and instead of pushing you i will juss wait here.. because i told you i thought it was worth it.. i still think its worth it.. ive never lied to you.. and i wont start now.. anyway.. i hope you find yourself.. and i hope you find home.. whether its with me or not.. and if not.. i will wish on stars every night that you will find happiness.. im sorry again..

pOoh

Regina.5:51 PM

Thursday, January 2
hahahahahahaha lOok:

lilazn moOn lyt: do you know
lilazn moOn lyt: yur cel phones still signed on?!
lilazn moOn lyt: hahaha
LiLcHaRmEr 0 5: hahhaha yahh
LiLcHaRmEr 0 5: dude
LiLcHaRmEr 0 5: i dont have reception!!
LiLcHaRmEr 0 5: so i cant put an away message!!
LiLcHaRmEr 0 5: cuz i cant get in!!
LiLcHaRmEr 0 5: and i just keep
LiLcHaRmEr 0 5: rubbing my head!!!
LiLcHaRmEr 0 5: but its not working

hahahaha silly girl -_-

Regina.8:35 PM

DOOODE>. my DAD juss bought me TWO CASES of bottled fraps!! caramel hazelnut coffee (dont like so much -_-) and vanilla. W00t! :D:D

Regina.8:02 PM

current mood:
song of the day: butterflies dont lie.kaci

mM real quick.. haha today as interesting.. i woke up EARLY today cuz steph and celina came over at 11.. we did like NOTHING dude.. and time hellah flew by.. we walked to KFC for lunch.. steph and celina like died on the way there.. and then died on the way back.. hahaha CELINA NEEDS TO EAT! omygosh >< its crazy.. hahaha it was fun tho :D and celina.. *AHEM* hahahahahaahha :D:D:D:D:D i know whO now. w00t!

anyways.. i gottah bounce.. leaving for cancun.. im about to go crazy cuz i havent started lit yet >< and i wont be at school on monday to like ask questions and shit.. gAhhhhh.. see you all tuesday!! :D:D

sigh.. moods for you loser.. im worried about yOu.. be GOOD okay.. dont trip.. there will be others.. one that deserves you and you for her.. >muchlove<

Regina.7:15 PM

survey stolen from tracy

The usual...
Name: gina
Birthdate: 1107
Location: 4o8
Sex: female
Height: 5'5" ? i dunno..
Current: ??? i dont even understand this question..hahah.. //i dont either -_-
Bands/Artists: mMm. to many to list
Accessories: wat weird questions -_-

This or that...
Nice smiles or nice eyes? both
Boots or sneakers? sneakers
Restaurants or fast food? restaraunts
Italian food or Chinese? italian :D yum
Dark or light eyes? no preference..
Streaked or dyed hair? streaked.. er well depends..
Vampires or Gods? Gods
Shakespeare or Greek mythology? Greek Mythology
Milk shakes or floats? both are yummylicious.. but i hardly ever get them -_-
Drugs or cigarettes? cigz..less illegal, but neither are good. //yaR.. haha
Football or cheerleading? cheerleading
Cake or pie? pies.. so sick of cakes >< haha
Do you want to die? sometimes..
How much time do you take to dress up? dress? sometimes i stand in front of my closest for like 20 minutes in the morning >< haha
Do you like your life? i should be thankful.. but i cant say that i am.. all the time "/
How well do most people know you? not very well.. sadly "/
Common or original is this survey? original

How often do you smile? idunnos.. haha imma dork
How many times a week do you eat junk food? i dunnos..
Sing? not for anyone..
Dance? hahahaha chiens my dancing partner :D
Laugh a lot? yea.. stephs fun to laugh at :D
Like spicy food? yar
Prefer bagels over yogurt? nO.. i dun really eat bagels that often.. yogurts yummy :D
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? ---
Want one? ---
Think babies are cute? babies are the cutest things in the world =)
Children in general? some are hellah annoying >< but sure i guess
Believe in fortune cookies? haha sorta.. but i never open them to read the fortune cuz i dont eat the cookie.. hahaha im hellah superstitious -_-
Believe in life after death? yea
Believe in life after love? i guess..
Believe that anything is possible? yea.. i think sO. all you need is a lil faith.. hope and love
Believe that everyone has a purpose in life? yep.. but i duno if ppl discover their purpose before its too late..
Know what yours is? i can believe that i do..


Are...
You a girl? uhh.. yea.. haha
You a comedian? haha no really.. i do the laughing
Your friends true friends in your opinion? some of them..
You bored? why else would i do this survey? haha


Describe...
Your heritage :: 1oo% chink
Your usual outfit :: jeans and a sweatshirt.. harhar.. dressing up takes too much energy ><
Your perfect day :: no troubles.. no worries.. no mistakes.. no questions.. no regrets..
Your hair :: LONG.. it is very very long.. should i get it? haha and its NATURAL COLORED. no one really believes me ><
Your eyes :: brown.. thats what sucks about being asain.. its so boring.. i wish i had pretty aqua colored eyes or something ^^ haha or hazel.. prettty
What you'd like to change about yourself :: too many things..
How you would like to die :: not painfully >< i wonder if yur life really flashes before your eyes.. i wanna see that.. and i wonder what i would see..
Are your weakness? :: guilt.. cant take it
Are your fears? :: being alone "/
Does your perfect pizza consist of? :: cheese and mushrooms //ahHh. TRACYS COOL!!!!
The difference between fate and destiny? :: i guess fate leads destiny //thats a good answer..
Is one thing you would like to achieve? :: happiness //that tOo.. haha
Do you love the most? :: family, friends
Really annoys you? :: my parents and my DAMN GRANDMOTHER. haha and some otherppl..
Who could you not live without? :: friends, family
Who Doesn't like you though you like him/her? :: i wouldnt know.. otherwise i would stop bothering them if i liked them so much..
Who Likes you though you hate him/her? :: hahaha i dunnos..


Is...
Hate too much of a strong word? :: yepp.. so is love..
Food from other cultures good?:: yar.. most of them are..
Your mood calm at the moment? :: yePs..

haha okay.. doode.. its kinda freaky.. i left a lot of tracys answers.. how strange.. hahaha gonna go pack now. byes!

Regina.2:40 PM

Wednesday, January 1
hey regina. happy new year. =D ur not mean. and who doesn't miss the math crew? good old times. when our biggest worries were about... practically nothing come to think of it.

Anonymous.4:58 PM

current mood:
song of the day: PTS.OF.ARTHRTY.linkin park

lOok.. its a STAR! harhar.. i dunno if he'll get it tho -_- hahahaha o wells. its so cold today =( but so sunny! :D siiigghhh.. im still not done with my lab report =( bOohOo.. i stil have hellah lit.. then.. writing for pub.. math hw i will copy off of steph :D harhar and yeas.. im leaving tomorrow night.. i wont get back til monday nightttttt imma be soO tired!!! plus theres time difference.. i think its only two hours tho? so it wont be that bad.. hopefully i can wake up on time for school tho -_- im waking up like 12 now.. its hellah awesome :D today my whole family woke up at like 11.. we never do that haha its gonna be RAINING IN CANCUN!! im soOo sad =[ goshie washies. but at least it'll be hot? yea.. its 80 something degrees.. it rains today tomorrow the day after and then its cloudy the rest of the days we're there =[ i asked my mom if i can get cornrows while im there :D harharhar she sed i would have to spend a whole day sitting.. but its okay.. since i have to study for bio anyway w00tw00t it'll be fun :D

i hope everyones new years was awesome.. me.. i was at home on my computer doing my lab report.. my sister yells "20 seconds!" i walk over to the tv.. oO pretty okay back to work.. then i grew angry at absolutely nothing.. missing someone very badly =( got depressed and went and ate. this was like at 1 oclock in the freaking morning.. i ate a bowl of cereal (whata early breakfast eh? heh heh) half a croissant.. lots and lots of sun chips -_- orange juice.. hMm.. other stuff mayb ei dont remember while pacing around in my kitchen.. then i felt really sick x_X haha sorry trace for like.. ending the phone call early.. i got tired -_- haha

jon invited me to go to see lot2 today.. it started already.. i couldnt go.. but its okay i guess.. i barely went out all break.. but thats okay too i guess. watever.. i didnt see the first lotr tho so i guess im not missing out that much.. haha since it wouldnt make sense anyway..

i love writing.. i feel like writing right now.. i read another piece from stephO.. gosh shes so good >< i wish i was more confident about my writing.. so i could write MORE.. just like everything else ive given up on "/ what ever happened to figure skating? i quit -_- i WILL start again.. i will.. maybe next break.. haha singing? stupid choir teacher -_- my singing abilities along with my self esteem went SPLAT right after she implied that i suck.. ballet? haha.. we wont even go there.. writing.. it went byebye right after.. 8th grade? essays freshman year -_- competing against ken kao. BUT our last essay freshman year I TIED FOR SAME SCORE! 99/100 :D:D w00t that was good.. i dunno.. sophomore year writing for pub.. current B- in the class does NOT help at all.. plus reading all of andreas and stephOs stuff.. its juss like.. get out of the game regina.. yur so behind.. sigh "/

whatevers.. today its FAMILY DAY.. yayy.. watever specially since my dad is being sucha fuckface today.. we're going to see some relatives or some shit today.. watever maybe "sneaky sneaky" (hahahaha.. as tracy would say) tonite.. i need to get out.. and then tomorrow steph and celina and shan might come over!! yAYyy :D i dunno, i'll have to ask -_- wish my luCk harhar mmm.. im out

Regina.2:22 PM

random question: do you guys think ive changed?

"/ i dunno.. for some reason i juss feel so.. mean.. haha like ive changed for the worse.. more bitter perhaps? a bitch? "/ sorrys guys.. i really dont like it tho =(

Regina.2:22 PM