Thursday, May 16
amen to that. only i'm in bitch mode now. so i feel sorry for him. grr*

Anonymous.7:31 PM

Wednesday, May 15
i dunno why this is happening to me.. i dunno why hes putting me through this.. and i dunno why God keeps me in circles. in one hand i have to be loyal to myself.. and i have to be true to myself and keep the promises i make.. in the other i have to keep others happy while i suffer like crazy. i dont want to believe ppl are born evil.. i DONT believe in it. im not sure if i even believe in pure evil and i hate the thought of thinking that someone would hurt another intentionally. i juss cant see it, i dont see why anyone would do that. for ANY reason, i dont care if the other person hates you because of who you are or who yur not - why WHY wud it go so far to hurting someone intentionally? i dunno if yur hurting me intentionally.. but it sure in hell seems like it. i cant think of a reason why you would wanna do.. im trying really hard to believe that you dont even noe you are.. that yur intentions are good, its juss that what you want isnt wat you have and i totally respect that.. i know wats its like.. but to hurt me the way you do.. its to a point where theres been so much hurt that i dont even noe anymore. WHY wud you want this? never once did i hurt you on purpose.. why cant i juss have the same? it hurts enough wen you dont feel the same.. and all the pretending is even worse.. but yur practically spitting in my face WHILE pretending.. even a blind person wudnt miss it.. do you take me for STUPID? or do you juss take me for granted? because ill never leave? yur right.. i never will =/

Regina.10:56 PM

Monday, May 13
yesss i'm on regina's webpage ! whee! it took me like..a minute just to find how to GET IN. but i'm cool, i founds it. sigh...okay today was an okay day...but then i get home..still hurting. it's like the world around me is happy..and i can be happy-but only in a world without..a certain someone. but i'd rather have that someone and be miserable than be happy in an empty way. sigh. that doesn't even make sense. yo soy delirious. regina thanks for blogging on my blog...blog is a weird word..lol.

Anonymous.7:35 PM

aHhh.. i feel like crapp!! >_< like physically.. my EYES hurt like crazy like MAD CRAZY. i dunnoo.. feels like somethings in them.. but it itches.. and it waters ((im sure everyone noes my eyes water like crazy.. haha)) so it might b allergies.. but i dun HAVE allergies!! and then my nose is running and stuff wen im NOT sick AND my face BURNS. its been burning ever since i went tanning that one damn day.. but i dun think its sun burnt.. but it HURTS!! aiiyaaahhhh.. haha i juss wanna sleep right now. its only 7.. my gosh.. and i dun get my math hw.. haha wow wat a complaining blog. i woked on my site the other nite.. i think imma put it up. its NO WHERE finished.. i havent even MADE some of the pages yet. but then if i put it up wen its done.. its kinda stupid.. because ill never work on it agin.. cuz its DONE! haha. i had another good dream last nite =) haha i juss sleep now doode. helps my problems.. cuz one i wake up and i dun remember wat i was feeling the night/day/hours before.. and two i get to dream! that should b my theme.. dreams.. mM.. next time. okay.. bak to the math hw i dont get. byebye

Regina.6:45 PM

Sunday, May 12
jeez. we are stacking UP the songs. lol we're going to have a fatty list. it just gets worse every day...i have to tell you a story about a dorky 8th grader..remind me to tell you..and WHO WAS THE GIRL IN THE DREAM?? lol. at least you have good dreams...the last dream i had ..i was stabbed by a fetal pig with a scalpel. that was SO disturbing. i can't dissect now. >P anyhow...yeah. not much school left..screw grades. they're going to suck anyway, so i'll just sleep away the rest of the year :D
ehh i drank 2 diet pepsis, one fruitfiz, and two gulps of red wine today. feeling a little weird. bubbly head. LOL.

Anonymous.9:14 PM

i had the weirdest dream last nite.. and i actually woke up happy.. i havent had one of those for a reeeaalllllyyyy long time.. sigh* so i dunno.. it seems like we're in college, but then we all look the same now. we all act the same as now.. anyway, i gess we bought this house.. or apartment something like that and we were all splitting it, there was like tOons of ppl. haha like 1o of our friends? housemates with two ppl per rOom. i dunno.. i saw sylvia haha and steph chien and ken kao.. very interesting. anyway.. so i was having problems wit this guy.. this guy ive been in love wit for more than a year. it was sorta like wen yur relationship isnt working wit that special someone - like you hit rock bottem. well thats where we hit and he was sad.. and i was sad.. well i dunno wat happened.. i think i hugged him.. or kissed him and it juss told him things were okay. that lil hug/kiss sealed our relationship.. like it was now "official" that we were boyfriend/girlfriend. total trust and total honesty... well then we started dancing =) that was soh awesome.. i think it was a slow song at first and then a fast one and we juss kept slow dancing.. while everyone else was juss chatting and looking around at our new house. it felt soOh good.. and i cud feel it while i was sleeping that it was pure happiness. PURE HAPPINESS. well then after like 2 min of dancing together, this chick walks through the door. we stop dancing and his jaw dropps and can NOT stop staring at her. haha. she was UGLY too.. someone that goes to our school but i wont say hoo.. heehee. i dunno.. wata typical ending for my dreams. but i still woke up happy.. im still dreaming.. and wishing for that day to come =)

i got another song for us cooL sister: [why do i love you] westlife. ill put up lyrics later

Regina.9:37 AM

Saturday, May 11
im not sure how much more i can take =/

Regina.11:06 PM

theres so much heartache-feelings everywhere right now.. its so sad.. it makes me sad =( i hope all of you feel better soon.. things always get better tho.. theres always a light at the end of the tunnel.. ill b here if you need someone to talk to er someone to juss listen okies? speaking of friends.. today i started thinking.. about drugs and alcohol and stuff.. and it makes me soh SICK.. literally sick in my stomach wen i think about the ppl i love doing that kinda shit to themselves. its like.. ppl and school and parents and the community talked to us about how bad it is for you.. even proved it to you in hopes that you'd b smart enough to turn away from them.. but its like they dont even noe.. or they dont care? but I CARE. it makes me so sad.. to even THINK of the ppl i grew up with, my friends, my family.. sigh* makes me kinda scared too.. of wat this stupid world is gonna turn into.. and if God had intended it to b this way.. anyway.. speaking of being scared.. lol freshman year is almost over!! 5 more weeks! yahOooooOoooo.. heehee.. and one of those weeks is finals >_< so 4 more weeks! sigh* i remember the first day of school man.. i remember last summer juss like it was yesterday.. i remember homecoming like it was last nite.. the whole "fartner" shit.. chilis.. bowling.. movies.. i remember wen we used to have fun.. did NOT seem like it was a year ago.. im kinda glad its over. some ppl are growing tho.. more mature.. while others.. are juss stuck. i feel sorry for those who are stuck. but next year we'll b sophomores and the sophomores this year who arent even that much older than us are gonna b in their junior year - the most important year of highschool acedemic wise.. and before you noe it it'll b us and then GRADUATION!! then we'll b all going our seperate ways to college.. get a job.. a family.. a LIFE. its soh scary.. and soh sad.. i got another song for my cooL sis: [if ever] 3rd storee. sigh* so much pain.. =( on to HAPPIER notes.. i watched spiderman last nite!! haha.. it was pretty good. i watched it wit my bro ((hoos seen it already)) and my sister.. i wudnt mind seeing it agin either.. the green globin is SOH FREAKING UGLY. shEesh.. its soh UGLY looking.. i thot i was gonna have nightmares =( he pops out and scares you in the movie.. this one time i almost screamed.. like really loud.. haha. wat else.. tomorrow is mothers day.. i havent gotten anything for my dear mother yet >_< im going tomorrow! haha excuse to go shopping too =) i need to do my campaign poster tomorrow.. i think im going to meet up with steph.. im not like psyched about elections nemore.. its the same every year.. yet another sad story. watever.. imma go watch top gun noW.. byebye

Regina.9:19 PM

Wednesday, May 8
it's easy to fall in love...but trying to get back up and walk away is hard.
sigh..my dear coolsis...things are never just simple for us, are they?

Anonymous.10:02 PM

i miss the past.. i miss it..

Regina.6:04 PM

im kinda pissed off right now.. but i cant really explain it.. its kinda.. i duNno weird. some ppl in this world expect too much from everyone else. life isnt meant to b perfect. life isnt meant to b easy. it juss doesnt work like that.. its hecka dumb. nO ones perfect and everyone makes mistakes. why cant some ppl accept that? even the ppl that dont make mistakes too! its like they criticize other ppl.. and they make fun of other ppl.. but wen it comes down to them being made fun of.. or talked shit about it.. they cant freaking HANDLE it. if you talk shit about ppl, expect to b talked shit about. wat goes around comes around. i duNno.. watever.. ppl juss need to understand life and ppl are perfect. anyywwayyy.. i should hellah b studying for intro right now.. i didnt noe like 3/4 of the questions from jeopardy.. haha cept our group won by like a 1oo points. ::yaWn:: me sleepy. i think imma go.. byebye

Regina.5:09 PM

Monday, May 6
also...almost doesn't count, u don't know me, truthfully..put that on everything..well almost the whole album.

Anonymous.10:19 PM

look at my blog for my "life rules" lol. GOOD SONG LYRICS. me got more...sigh* this one kinda applies to you cool sister >>
Angel in disguise she was But somehow you fell for her Until she broke your heart that day And left you in the rain
But still I love you I found it quite strange The way you said her name And when you look in her eyes
I see the lust you can't deny It's more to this than what you say Cause in your sleep you called her name
You say she's just a friend I knew right then cause the rain began She seemed so familiar the day that I met her
Who was she foolin' I had a clue what she was doin' Thoughts of suspicion brought to my attention
I fell in her game I'm so lost Please stop the rain
And when my music stops And when my tear drops
And when the rain ends My heart will beat again
[angel in disguise]brandy..
also the boy is mine..and have you ever..sigh. never say never was a good album. :D
anyhow i have much hw. love you <3

Anonymous.10:16 PM

taking a break from studying.. heehee, stoopid worrall. "okay class tomorrow yur going to have this 5o point test that you cant study for because im collecting yur papers today and you dont have the boOks at home" shEesh. luckily, i went and borrowed a book after school, but still. goodness gracious. and then we have a test either thursday or friday SHES NOT SURE. o wells.. watever.. today was an interesting day. not really. haha. our teacher for art didnt show up the whole time.. we couldve all ditched but then someone stupid called a teacher next door.. but thats okay me and peter played games all period.. and we were playing pool.. and i accidently hit the 8 ball in towards the end of the game! >_< haha, fuNnie funnie. we tried playing checkers.. then his computer froze.. then mine wudnt load. then his froze agin.. then mine wudnt load agin.. then mine froze.. then wen it finally started working.. the bell rang. i found a really good song =) actually, my brother found it. tis from the serendipity soundtrack.. it goes out to my cooL sister also

wen you noe that you noe who you love.. you cant deny it.. or go bak or give up pretend that you dont buy it.. wen its clear this time yoove found the one.. yooll never let him go.. cuz you noe and you noe that you noe.. wen you feel in yur skin in yur bones and the hollow of yur heart theres no way you can wait til tomorrow.. wen there isnt any doubt about it once you come this close.. cuz you noe and you noe that you noe.. you can feel loves around you like ths sky around blue.. the is how love has found you and now you noe wat to do.. wen you noe that you noe who you need.. you cant deny it.. or go bak or give up or pretend that you dont buy it.. wen its clear this time youve foud the one, yooll never let him go.. cuz you noe and you noe that you noe..

Regina.9:42 PM

blogging in regina's blog...i still haven't seen serendipity. but there was one time in PARTICULAR i wanted to see it..but yeah. that opportunity passed XP. lalalalala...i wish i could go two months back in time...gRrr* anyhow..me go do hw now..byebye

Anonymous.8:09 PM

well i wish i knew what to do when you feel like a failure in ever single possible way imagined. that's i how feel these days >T
sigh* life bites >_<

Anonymous.2:54 AM

Sunday, May 5
wat do you do wen you feel like a failure in every single possible way imagined?

Regina.9:07 PM

i juss watched serendipity.. oOmmygooshh.. if you havent seen it yet GO SEE IT! its soh cute!! haha.. and its a REALLY good movie. you nooe.. those types that get you soh angry yur screaming at the tv/movie screen, crying ((well.. i didnt cry on this one.. surprisingly..)) jumping up and down wen it comes to the climax.. evveerryythhinngg.. the only thing is i didnt have anyone to watch it with =( if you have a special someone, go see it with them =) haha otherwise juss get a bunch of friends!! i finished and i was all jumpy :) heehee yea okay thats all i wanted to say. im gonna gO now.. heehee

wen winter comes in summer.. wen theres no more forever.. thats wen ill stop loving you.. im sure yoove heard these words before.. and i noe its hard for you to trust them once more.. yur afraid it all might end.. and a broken heart is scared of breaking agin.. but yoo gottah believe me.. ill never leave you.. yoo'll never cry unless i am there.. and i will always b there.. you will never b without love.. wen winter comes in summer.. wen theres no more forever.. wen lies become the truth.. well yoo'll noe then baby.. thats wen ill stop loving you..

Regina.7:51 PM

i got bored agin.. heres some more quizes i took.. haha

You're the FONT tag- some people ignore you, some people adore you. When you like someone, you like them a lot, but when you don't like them- watch out.




You're a classic. You're popular. What else could you ask for? Maybe a taste in music, but that's up to you.

((im normal you guys.. this quiz is soOOh off.. haha))

okie thats enof for today.. im sure im going to get bored another day.. very soon.. haha laters


Regina.3:55 PM

Friday, May 3
sigh* my goodness.. im soh sorry you guys.. this week has blown SO much its not even funny.. sorry ive been like down all week.. sorry you guys had to deal wit me =( today i was thinking.. holy frick do i overreact like crazy.. and i get hecka mad easily.. it sucks >_< nor do i think before i act.. i mean i DO think.. at the time i think i think A LOT.. but then after i do it.. i really havent thought it through.. and wen im angry.. juss in general i take it out on ppl that havent even done nethang.. im sooh sorry guys. i dunno.. it builds up inside ya noe? and juss one lil thing can make me burst.. PLUS.. i am QUITE emotional. that prolly sucks the MOST. emotional and sensative..anyways.. im sorry if i take it out on yoo wen im mad.. or if i say hEckka mean things to you.. sometimes i dont even mean the things i say.. they juss kinda come out. and soRry for overreacting sometimes.. im juss a big old freak =( please try to understand you guys.. im working on it too.. i love you all very much.. thanks for putting up with me

Regina.6:21 PM

i noe all about.. about yur reputation.. and now its bound to b a heartbreak situation.. but i cant help it if im helpless everytime that im with you.. you walk in and my strength walks out the door. say my name and i cant fight it anymore.. i noe.. i should go.. but i need yur touch just too damn much.. loving you isnt really something i should do.. i shuldnt wanna spend my time with you.. i should try to b strong.. but baby yur the right kind of wrong.. it might b a mistake.. a mistake im making.. but wat yur giving im happy to b taking.. cuz all that will make me feel the way i feel wen im in yur arms.. i should try to run but i just cant seem to.. cuz everytime i run yur the one i run to.. cant do without wat you do to me.. i dun care if im to deep.. yur the right kind of wrong..

good song =)

Regina.6:21 PM

Thursday, May 2
ahh i agree! blogs/xangas just lead to more and more..:D i was surfing through for like hours. lol. lalalal..sorry you've been feeling sick my cool sister..:( i love you! atb..addicted to blogging---

Anonymous.10:40 PM

i can NOT WAIT until we're juniors!! haha.. okay soh here i am.. bored as ever and im reading all these junioRs sites.. okay.. call me a freak.. watever, but chien sent me something.. and then the links went to more links and then more links. yea you get the picture and its not like they were juniors i didnt noe either soh im NOT a freak >_< haha anyways.. they juss seem to have so much FUN!! even tho junioR years like more stressful acedemically.. they're all soh hAppy! haha. i sound high dont i? but its true!! sigh* cant wait cant wait. winter ball.. juNior prom.. CARS!! wEee... lol. im watching charmed right now.. im soh damn bored.. half studying for intro.. even tho our test is like tuesday.. i dunno much of it tho. schools sucha damn drag thO.. seriously.. go to school, then you have gay lunch where we sit around for 45 min.. go bak to class.. after school you come home do hw, go to sleep and the process starts all over agin. i need a life! we all need lives. lets b highschool drop outs! =D juss kidding.. lalala. somethings rong wit me today.. i feel really really.. weird.. i dun think thats a good thing either.. ive been feeling sick a lot past week.. ugH.. like right now.. later

Regina.9:45 PM

lalala so i'm blogging now..i hate thinking too! i have this dull ache in the middle of my head and it hurts like a fricker. >_< lol don't even ASK how i come up with that stuff. i just make up words daily. "holy f*cknut!" "what the monkeyhole!?" i think random words just kinda come out... :D sigh. today was not a good dayyy....swimming is HELLA boring sometimes. ended up "sunbathing" for like the last 10 minutes or so...we only swam 20 laps though..DUDE vincent wasn't even LOOKING and the people in my class wouldn't let us cheat. dumbasses XP. like katie sang was like.."hey...SO THIS IS OUR 16TH LAP ALREADY RIGHT?" and the guys are all like.."umm..no..it's only our 6th.." aiyaah. yes regnart carnival tomorrows! 4-6 i think? at regnart, obviously. :D please go! and meet up at the cakewalk so we can win! muahhaa. i am SO glad the intro test is not tomorrow...worrall's pretty cool. i love ms. giffin! awesomest teacher ever. :D she was telling us about her 8th grade bf today..LOL hella funnyyy. anyhow. i think in highschool the teachers actually get worse. cause in junior high i had hella good teachers..and now it's kinda like..gahhh. we need more teachers like mr. blair..(the history one) he is awesome possum. sigh...okay so school sucks and so do my grades...at the rate i'm going i might not even get into deanza. (i'm kidding, but you never know..) lala got my locker today..it's in like..the darkest hallway of the school...eek >_< so connie (who is absolutely WONDEFUL) is letting me share with her..man the lockers are hugeeee. :D anyhow i'm sharing with her..but i'm still keeping my locker..just in case. whee! lol. we're slick like ice. XP lol. agh i have mucho work to do...lit essay (crapcrap), study for PE/swim tomorrow, math hw, pig dissecting tomorrow..b choir i'm scared for our performance cause our choreography isn't practiced..start studying for business...finish up spanish project (just write period number on the cover). lol i blogged so much..what am i going to write in MY blog? jeezus. okay me going. byebye

Anonymous.8:48 PM

shiiieettt.. im soh bored!! haha.. and tired >_< i cud NOT sleep last nite.. my goodnes.. sucked like a freaking mo. i was juss lying in bed thinking for like an HOUR before i fell asleep.. and i was tired too =( then i woke up at 5!! FIVE AM mAn.. and i cudnt go bak to sleep.. juss thot and thot and thot.. and i HATE thinking! mM.. tomorrows friday =) yAaAy... heehee. cept chinese school.. XP i wanna ditch.. anyone wit me? i took some quizes since i was so damn bored.. =)

this ones cool cuz i actually want a benz =) heehee

yEops.. pretty interesting.. anyways.. i gess imma go.. i wanna take a nap! haha laters.. oO.. imma go blog andrea =)


Regina.6:22 PM

Wednesday, May 1
its been five months since you went away.. left without a word and nothing to say.. wen i was the one who gave you my heart and soul.. but it wasnt good enough for you, no.. so i asked God.. God send me an angel from the heavens above.. send me an angel to heal my broken heart from being in love.. cause all i do is cry.. God sent me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes.. and i noe it might sound crazy.. but after all that i still love you.. you wanna come bak in my life.. but now theres something i have to do.. i hae to tell the one that i onced adored that he cant have my love no more.. cuz my heart cant take no more lies.. and my eyes are all out of cries.. now you had me on my knees begging God please to send you back to me.. i cudnt eat, cudnt sleep.. you made me feel like i cudnt breathe.. now all i wanted to do was to feel yur touch.. and give you all my love.. but you took my love for granted.. wanting my love now but you cant have it..

i love you still.. you noe it.. i always will.. you noe that too.. but yur coming bak for the wrong reasons.. and im sorry you dont feel the same =(


i need to MOVE!! aHh.. out of tino.. this enviroment is soooOoh bad. haha.. i need to move out of mv too.. too much STRESS. too much work.. anyone wanna join me? we can.. run away together? haha. convince our parents to move.. both of them.. or convince them to buy a house for us and we'll live there! haha.. yea.. right..

Regina.10:44 PM

hey y'all <3 it's andrea blogging in gina's blogger! it's so purty..and pink! lol much better than mines. but visit mine anyway! yess. i am shamelessly advertising my blog...xmisschiefx. :D get it? mischief..miss..chief...okay never mind. anyhow...if y'all don't know gina..she is sweet, loving, caring, wonderful, spiffy, fantabulous, absolutely beeyootiful person. not to mention my cool sister/handtwin/angel. i love her, obviously :D even though we bitch sometimes...but we always end up okay. sigh...g i hope you feel better soon...and no, i'm not that happy. :D anyhow i gotta go do hw now...bye!

Anonymous.10:11 PM

i juss took like a 3 hour nap. haha. i got into the car at around.. 3.. slept in the car til i got home. went to my room and slept in my bed.. woke up around.. 7.. ate dinner and here i am now. 3+ hours.. i feel okay i gess. haha this is how i run from my problems.. i juss sleep. i wake up and i dun feel nethang.. i dun remember nethang.. but then it hits me a couple hours later. but in a couple hours ill b sleeping agiN! haha.. i fuckyn BOMBED my damn bio quiz today. damn.. beginning of lunch i studied a little bit ((plus last nite)) and i was thinking how i knew all the sh*t.. towards the end of lunch i was feeling like watever and yea i wasnt intending on going but i ended up taking it and i fuckyn bombed it.. sigh* it was so easy too.. watever i gess.. it dont matter.. they're juss grades.. juss letters.. that get you accepted at colleges.. and decide wat kind of future yoo'll have.. it doesnt matter..

Regina.7:11 PM

[ 050102 10:49am | steph chien ] .. not gina :D
hello children. wat is up? haha. me and shan went to 2nd for 15 min and sed we hadda go :D w00t. soh yess. we've been wanderin around for bout an hour then decided to go to art with di peter G christine and kat. haha. yess. wow.. now isnt gina's blog AWESOME? :D haha. well wish me and shan luck at our league trials today.
[ last note: tobacco is whacko ... if yoor a TEEN :D ]

Regina.10:51 AM