Thursday, October 31
hAHah look what i found you guys!!

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i didnt know i was all of THAT ;D i found it at googlism.com. cheCk it out

Regina.9:24 PM

finally.. some time to write. i have like nothing tonite.. had some math hw.. done.. have biO hw but im not gona do it.. and i think thats it? no tests tomorrow either! pretty nifty. my 5th period teacher is bringing us tO an assembly tomorrow.. we have a rally tomorrow, so everyone wear they're class shirts! heehee, and everyone go to the hc game saturday! come see our float that KICKS ASS. and also see our ass get kicked by toga.. haha. anyways..

i was gonna write this fat blog about religion.. because i went to the temple sunday and yea.. i juss came back feeling DIFFERENT. ((im buddhist.. in case you didnt know.. haha)) ((HAHA: CHIEN)) anyways.. maybe i will if i get bored at the end of this blog.. i dunno we will see. o.. homecoming. yea that SUCKED. me shan and steph were all saying how we dont wanna look back on our highschool years and say we missed out on all the "fun" cuz hc only happens four times in yur life you know? and we were all juss too lazy to bother to go.. and we didnt want to regret it! so after HOURS of consideration.. ((really.. HOURS, like from 1-9) we went and had sucha bad time. it was so horrible. we are all never going stag again. haha and the dance itself SUCKED. but we looked on the brighter side.. at least we arent gonna look back and say we didnt go sophomore year AND we got to see some groDy stuff. which is GRODY but hellah funny ;D

HAHAHAHAHA.. i juss had this convO with my good friend soh-mean (suming..)
lilazn moOn lyt: suming suminGgggg

Auto response from sumingpride: brb. leave a message and i will get back to you as soon as possible

lilazn moOn lyt: hey soh mean =]
sumingpride: hey wsup
lilazn moOn lyt: you going to the game sat?
sumingpride: if chris yun goes
lilazn moOn lyt: oi
lilazn moOn lyt: c
sumingpride: are YOU going?
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sumingpride: no wonder everyones been asking meif im going hahaha
lilazn moOn lyt: hahaha
lilazn moOn lyt: HAHAHAHa
sumingpride: cuz chris just told me to go
sumingpride: and i was like "ok ok ok"
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lilazn moOn lyt: omyGOSH
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lilazn moOn lyt: you are the biggest dORk

HAHAHAHA.. he is SUCHA dork. he like pulled a stephlyu ;] haha he juss made my night.. haha anyways..

i HATE the way my blog looks. i get to change it soon thO.. but its so FREAKING hard to find a template like.. gRrrRRr. anyone wanna make one for me? im thirsty. hmM..

todays brian jans birthday! he is exactly 7 days older than i. and i am one day older than jonathan yung. two days older than evelyn.. 15 days older than jeffrey.. annd one month and 2 days older than jon =] hahaha.. incoming info: ken wore my skirt. "it was pretty comfortable" he says. hahAh..

okay.. i think im going to get some WATER and find some skins. g*nite guys!

Regina.9:16 PM

Wednesday, October 30
wow.. ive been meaning to write multiple times this week. really quick.. my last entry.. was not meant to hurt or effend anyone.. and im sorry if it did.. i was jus having a HORRIBLE night and i actually did end up going to hc and it was a WORSE night because of that.

anyways.. i have 4 hours of sleep last nite >< and i have sO much more hw tonite and im so TIRED. sigh. i failed my math test today =[

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS!!

haha im being mean to him today. haha cuz im nice to him like everyday but today its his birthday so i have to be mean! okay.. back to hw.. GROWL. o SHIT. i have bio homework!!!!

Regina.9:58 PM

Saturday, October 26
mMm.. i have much to write today.. tonite is the nite of homecoming.. and it feels like last years hc was just yesterday. too bad it wasnt juss yesterday.. i remember being soOo happy.. so incrediable happy.. and i woke up the next day HAPPY. it was soo crazy.. i remember waking up.. smiling.. and i got online.. and me and brian were juss hecka happy. it was pretty crazy. monday will be exactly one year from that day. and its weird cuz.. how many times do you actually remember being HAPPY? you remember all the times you cry.. the times you hurt.. but happy? hardly.. but i remember.

and it sucks things change. i was thinking about that on the way home.. WHY do things need to change? everything would juss be fine if nothing ever did. we would still be like lil kids.. HAPPY.. and not stressed.. have nothing to worry about.. life would be so much easier. sure.. we would never learn.. never experience pain.. which would lead to never really appreciating happiness.. but who cares.. yur going to die anyway - and what then? its juss really stupid.. everythings just really stupid..

and then i also thought.. ((i did A LOT of thinking today.. my head hurts..)) that mv isnt the place for me. i do not belong here. no effence to anyone.. i love my "friends" but deep inside.. im not like the ppl at mv.. im actually, totally different. ppl juss dont understand me.. and i dont think they ever will.. which i guess doesnt bother me that much all the time.. but we're juss.. different. just different.. and sometimes the differences juss make it hard i guess.. i have to pretend a lot.. and no one sees thru it.. when like im screaming for help.. but its okay. things happen.

then i also thought about friends. and you will see why i put friends in quotes up there^. ever since i was a lil girl.. friends were my everything. m y e v e r y t h i n g. i never really liked my family much.. never really wanted to spend time with them.. and i always wanted to be with my friends. id pick them over family any day.. so i thought when i was a girl. but i grow up.. and i realize how important my family really is. the quote used to be.. boys come and go but friends are forever.. to me.. its more like friends come and go but family lasts forever.. over the years ive lost SO MANY friends.. so many.. i cant even count them if i tried.. and it makes me sO sad to know that the ppl i grew up with.. or loved.. or called my best friend.. are so distant from me that i cant even remember their names. friends are NOT forever. whatever you say. that was part of my speech in lit. so okay, forever is nothing. thats established.. but now.. with the "friends" i have now.. what does it mean? that i trust them.. they trust me, we're honest and tell each other everything? we try to keep one another happy and try to protect each other? we care about each other and love one another? wouldnt you say this is a friend? now, think of all the people you know, and count how maany of them actually do all of these. i only need one hand.
so i come to the conclusion.. that there are no such things as friends. it sounds harsh, i know. and i guess it doesnt necessarily apply to ALL of the ppl i know.. so the wording isnt exactly right. its more like.. not all the ppl you know are yur friends? or not all the ppl that you thought were yur friends are? because friends dont betray you.. friends dont lie to you.. friends dont hurt you.

there were other things that i thought about.. i know. but they juss arent coming to me right now. i have a billion things going through my mind thO.. like how its hc night and im sitting at home by myself. i think ill juss go sleep, and maybe God will be nice and never have me wake up again. this is something that i will regret ((not going to hc)).. because it only happens 4 times in yur whole lifetime.. but whatever. im juss not up to it.

bye guys.



Regina.6:38 PM

Wednesday, October 23
ahh.. old story.. but i found it today =] enjoy

About four years ago, when life wasn't so hard, and friends and good times were all that really mattered..... a young girl about 14 years of age lived her life of simplicity. Her name was Leana. She was currently with someone totally different from her, and not to mention, a pure heart breaker and loser. But hey, life was good, she was young, and basically that didn't really matter. All that mattered was that she knew what it was like to feel for a guy at that time, and to live her life of endless happiness with her friends and family. One afternoon, she stood on the grassy hill after school, embracing her so called boyfriend Jerry. And at that moment, about 10 feet away, at the flag pole, stood a boy about two years older than Leana by the name of James. He watched her gently hug her boyfriend, and then slowly walk away, until he could no longer see her image. He never knew what it was like to feel for anybody, however, a strange feeling inside took over him. Something extremely unexplainable, and so confusing. And he thought to himself, "One day, I just gotta meet her." "Hey James!" a boy called out. "Why do you look all dazed off en stuff?" "Ah nothin' Jay, let’s just go home now" James replied. When James had arrived to Jay's house, they sat down for some soda, and James had totally gotten his mind off of that strange feeling. "Damn, I forgot to go call my homegirl man, can you hand me the phone James?" Jay asked as he took a sip of his soda. "Hello may I please speak to Leana? This is Jay" he asked. Jay and Leana began to conversate, until he remembered to do some chores… so he handed the phone to James. "Here man, can you go talk to her for awhile, I gotta do some stuff for my dad real quick?" "Aight cool" said James. "Hello! Yeah hi this is James! Who's this?" "Oh this is Leana" she replied. After that one conversation, Leana and James began to keep in touch with phone calls everyday. Neither one of them knew what they looked like, or so they thought. For James was totally clueless that that one girl he watched from the flag pole the other day, was the very girl he was laughing and talking with everyday. It had been weeks, and then months, and Leana and James grew close, and told one another everything imaginable. And with this bond, they became the best of friends. Still not knowing what they looked like in person, James decided to visit Jay again after school, which of course so happened to be the same school as Leana. James knew for a fact that Leana went to that school, but still didn't know what she looked like. Till that day after school….

As James walked onto the campus, he stood by the same flagpole, and waited for Jay. He watched the crowd of people, chatting about, and doing their own thing, until he spotted that one girl he had seen that one afternoon. He was so caught up by the way she carried herself, and how different she seemed from the other girls. She was shy, mature, quiet, and simple. None of that make up stuff all over her face. As he admired her, something immediately caught his attention… "Ey Leana, wassup!" a girl called out, walking towards the girl James was admiring. "Wassup" she said with a grin on her face. "Oh my gosh!" James said to himself. "Could that be Leana? The girl I've been talking to on the phone with?" He was so surprised. He walked up from behind Leana, and tapped her on her shoulder and quickly turned around, pretending he didn't do anything. Disturbed as Leana could be said "How rude!" and all James could do was laugh. He couldn't believe that that girl he was so eager to meet, was the very girl he had been talking to for quite awhile now….Leana.

He called her that day, and told her that he saw her. Leana was so surprised. "Oh that was you huh, that one guy who tapped me on the shoulder huh?" she laughed. Inside, Leana and James felt something so weird, every time they talked and every time they were apart. They felt something inside when they thought of one another. But the feelings they felt, they let it pass, and denied it to themselves, as if it were simply nothing. They wondered about these feelings time to time, but never really tried to figure out what it meant, or what it was. Leana and James told one another about their lives, their fears, problems, and little infatuations over people every now and then, but never the kept feeling inside for one another. One rainy day, Leana called James up crying about losing Jerry. He comforted her so much, and she felt so much better when he did. James was always there for Leana, and he never once let her down. That's one thing she loved about him so much. Not to mention, they were so much like one another, always making people laugh, and always making each other happy. Some say that these two were exactly the same, except different names, and the opposite sex of course. Summer came and James and Lena spent more time with one another, and finally got to see each other in person. They met each other at Jays' house one day, and Leana's heart dropped when she saw James for the first time. She watched him play on the computer, just as he watched her that one day after school. When it was time to go home, James gave Leana his school ID and she said her goodbye with a warm embrace to James. They both blushed, and that same unexplainable feeling took over the both of them. Leana knew then what that long time feeling she had been feeling all those times. She was no longer in denial...she liked him. The first person she told was her bestfriend Lae, who too knew James. She was shocked! Days later, James was talking to Jay, as he said, "Hey Jay, I think I like Leana." "Really!!! Wow, that's cool." From that day on forward, only five people knew, Jay, Lae, Leana, James, and god himself. And it was up to fate to lead the both of them to their destiny. It had been a whole year, and Leana and James still didn't want to admit their feelings to one another. They knew what was up, but never took the risk to admit. Until Leana hinted him out what she felt. "I'm suppose to tell you everything right James?" she asked him. "Duh! Why? You like someone huh?" he replied. "Uh yeah, sorta" she said. "Who," he asked. "Well, he has the same background as you, about your height, your age, and you know him very well. You see him everyday." She hinted out. James knew then what that meant. He felt the same, but was so afraid to show it, because he never had a girlfriend in his whole entire life. He knew it was him, and Leana was so relieved telling him. Day by day they flirted every now and then and admitted their feelings in ways only they could understand.

On October 11, 1996, James and Leana both officially started seeing each other. He was the most perfect guy you could ever meet in Leana's eyes to be exact He was tall, handsome, great sense of humor, caring, loving, just everything close to being perfect in Leana's eyes. And his eyes, his eyes were so warm, so sexy, so… WOW! And she was everything she thought of him to James. Everyone said that they were the most cutest, and perfect couple. And they were both so happy with one another. Everyone even thought they'd get married someday. He did everything for, to, and because of her, and she surely did the same for him. Their forgiveness, love, passion, and care were endless for one another. These two were inseparable, and in love. He always told her "you're such a big baby… you and those big brown eyes of yours, and those cute chubby cheeks …God I love you" and kissed her lovingly on her lips. "I love you too babe," she'd always reply. Two years passed, and James of course graduated and things began to change. They got into many fights, and Leana began to feel the hurt inside, she never ever felt before. James told her though, that throughout all this negativity, he still loved her.

He took her hand one day, as she cried cold painful tears, and looked her in her eyes and said "No matter what, through it all, this is it….There's no one else but you. I will always love you, and I will always end up with you….. I promise," and wiped her tears away as he kissed her forehead gently. James began to change, and emotionally hurt her daily. Her sweetest and most perfect man was slowly disappearing into someone she never knew. He began to stop doing things for her, he stopped making her happy, and he stopped saying sweet things. He stopped visiting her, and stopped calling, and always chose his friends over her.

When they argued, he'd yell at her, hang the phone up on her, and leave her with so much pain and nothing to do but cry. It was soon passed half a year, and things gotten worse. When she tried telling him how she felt, he just let it pass. He started lying about many things, and became so unfaithful to her. He began to drink, which he promised he wouldn't, and hung out with his friends morning, noon, and night, and never had time for her. James did things that his old sweet self would never do before. He left her many times at home just crying, and didn't even bother to see if she was okay. Basically, Leana was in love with someone who seemed to not love her back anymore. They were together alright, but didn't seem like it to Leana. It hurt to much inside, but because Leana loved him so much, she never did let him go. She took the pain, and cried endless tears, and still loved him through it all, while he was out breaking promises, and being someone he knew he never was before. There never passed a day when leana didn't think about him, worry about the relationship, wonder why he was the way he was, or cried about the hurt. The pain he caused her scarred her heart deeper and deeper everyday. Her family was affected, her friends, and even school. Everybody was worried about her. No one ever saw her smile anymore. She hardly slept, and just everything in her life fell apart. All because that one most perfect human being who walked into her life, and who she loved so much, hurt her in ways that could never be fixed. James basically left her out of his time, out of his reach, out of his life. He acted as if she wasn't even his girlfriend. She did as much as she could for him, though he didn't see it, and sacrificed her whole life for him. She did anything to make things work, but he didn't do much at all. She tried so hard to figure out what the problem was, & why he hurt her so much. "How can God give you the most perfect gift of your whole life to love, and take it away as if it wasn't yours to keep" she asked everyday. James became meaner and meaner, and it hurt her more and more. One day he picked her up from school, and his was so different. She looked at him slowly. His built was bigger, his lips …no smile, his voice so monotone, and his eyes…. She looked at his eyes through the rear view mirror, and she began to cry. His eyes were so cold now, and that love, warmth, and sweetness she use to see no longer existed. James wasn't James anymore. They didn't speak a word that car ride home, and all she could think was "Why? Why was it like this now?" She came home and cried her heart out. And all that played in her head was the days he always dropped by just to see her, just to hold her. Now, he seemed as if he didn't even want to hold her anymore, touch her, or look at her. She blamed herself for all of this, didn't know why, but it just seemed like it was her fault. She lay in bed that night reminiscing about the nights they laid together in bed, and he held her close to his body, and never did let go. How she use to wake up summer mornings, and he'd be smiling and watching her sleep till she got up. Why was everything so hard now, and why did it hurt so much? She remembered the sweet ring of his voice constantly telling her he loved her, while they kissed, or just stared into each others eyes. She remembered the days when he'd stroke her hair, and laid the most simplest, sweetest, kisses on her lips. She remembered the days when he'd run all the way to her house just to hug her tight, and she remembered the days when just everything between them was so perfect. She cried helpless tears, and all hope was just gone. She knew she was still so young, but regardless what age she was, it still hurt. She felt that endless pain that shuts your whole life and hope down. The point was, she felt it, and she didn't know how to make it go away. There were times where she'd think about leaving him, but she imagined how worse the pain would feel knowing she lived a life without him. Just as long as she knew she was his, and he was hers made the slightest bit of feeling okay. Her tears fell harder, and her mind began to shut down on her. All she could think was "God I love you James, I miss your old self so much." One afternoon, James picked her up from school again. They were both walking until Leana began to cry like usual. "Why are you crying again damn!" James yelled. "Nothing…" she struggled to say. "You know what I hate about seeing you all the time, is that you always end up crying on me for no fucken reason! What the hell am I doing wrong now shit!" he yelled again. She tried to hug him tight, yet he resisted. "I love you James, I'm sorry," she cried. "Yeah whatever," he coldly said. James was so frustrated, didn't know what he was thinking, didn't know what he was doing. A confusion of being with her or leaving her just rushed through his head, as they walked towards the car. Suddenly, in the midst of it all, a loud bang alerted them both. James didn't know what it was. He turned around to see if Leana heard it, "Ey did you……. NOOOOOO!" he cried. Leana had been shot on her right side, as she lay bleeding, and gasping for breath on the street by James' car. He ran over to her as everyone crowded around. "Fuckin' call 911" he screamed, as tears began to roll down his eyes. "Babe are you okay?" he asked, holding her in his arms. Leana slowly reached to touch his right cheek, as she looked him in his eyes, and lightly smile. "Babe, I'm so sorry if I did anything wrong to make us the way we are now." She struggled to say. "Leana don't even say that, you're going to be okay… God someone help!!!" he cried. "You hurt me a lot James, but I still continued to love you. Because no matter what, through it all, that's it, there's no one else… no one else but you." she smiled, and coughed as she gasped for air. She began to cry, and still the pain she felt within her heart still struck her like always. Flashbacks of their times together rushed through her mind, and she could hardly keep her eyes open, as her helpless body lay strongly against James' chest. James crying harder than ever looked down into her eyes, hoping she wouldn't die. "Babe I'm so sorry for everything, God I love you! You can’t leave, we're suppose to get married remember? Remember babe, I promised, this is it, it's you that I'm suppose to end up with. Babe remember?" he cried. "I know I know," she nodded her head slightly up and down, as her tears began to mix with the bright red blood upon her body. James held her tighter and closer to his body. "God please no, don't take her away from me…" he whispered. Leana's hand began to slowly drift away from his cheek, as she struggled to keep her eyes open. "I love you so much James, and I wish I could've made everything all better. But babe... Everything I did, and every tear I cried… I did it all for you…… everything…I love you babe." She said, "I don't wanna go, but I have to, and God knows I love you. We'll be together again babe….remember, because you said, we will always be together…. We will" She said slowly as one last tear rolled upon her cheek, and dropped slowly on James hand. Her eyes closed,"I love you," she whispered, and Leana had passed away. "Noooooooo!!!" James cried. "You can’t go…" he rocked her back and forth, and tried to wake her up. "Babe? Babe? Wake up… c'mon Leana. Please please…we can work things out I promise," "c'mon babe, we're suppose to get married babe, wake up. Babe? Please…" he begged. He closed his eyes and rested his head upon hers as endless tears continued to fall. "God Im so sorry I didn't take care of you babe, I'm so sorry," he cried as he kissed her forehead. All James could do was cry, and hold her until the ambulance came. As they put her on a stretch, and placed a white blanket over her head, it began to rain. James on his knees looked up into the sky and cried his heart out. "I love you Leanaaaaaaa!!!!!!!" he screamed. "I love you." He whispered one last time. From that day on, James knew there was nothing else he could fix. His life, his love, was no longer there. And all he could think about was her smile, and that one day she lay in his arms dying. He will always remember her, and will always love her…. Because this is it, it was her, that he chose to love for life. You see, life is never forever, and things come only once. You don't know how long you'll get to keep things, and you'll never how long you'll get to live. But as long as you know you've got something in your life you love ,and cherish so much…….. make the best of it. Because one day, when you least expect it, you could lose the most important thing in your life you set your whole future for. Take care of things while their still small, and most of all take much care of the people you love. Because one day, it just might be too late to take care of anything, or even see them smile again. Trust me I know… some day we will be.... because we promised we would.

Author: Unknown


Regina.5:11 PM

Monday, October 21
yaLo. lalala.. doode my uncle juss called.. and everytime he or his wife calls.. they speak to me in english like i dunno how to speak chinese.. haha its kinda.. weird. YEA. random thing you guys didnt need to know. haha lOok at this!

P3T312L33: of course
P3T312L33: id search for you
P3T312L33: your my daughter im responsible
lilazn moOn lyt: hahaha
P3T312L33: if i get lost.. would you search for me? ((<< copied from my profile))
lilazn moOn lyt: would you really?
P3T312L33: i have to
P3T312L33: :]
lilazn moOn lyt: awww
lilazn moOn lyt: thats so nicee!
P3T312L33: hahahahahah
P3T312L33: welll....you see im peter im born like that
lilazn moOn lyt: haha
lilazn moOn lyt: yeP. peter is nice
P3T312L33: hahah
P3T312L33: sweeet

hahaha.. isnt that nice/sweet? haha.. sometimes its the unexpected things that just make you smile.. or sometimes.. its the unexpected waves, hellos, phone calls, hugs, even SMILE that juss make your day. its pretty crazy. its actually.. really crazy. haha and true too..

today we went to go look at 2 more houses.. they were right behind nob hill. one of them was 6 bedroOms.. which is what we're looking for.. but it was a realy small house. plus.. it was old so its style is pretty funky. it was CHEAP too.. so i dunno.. it was juss really small. looking for houses is really hard.. you always compare to your own house.. and nothing just seems better than what you have.. cuz its yur HOME. its homesweethome! like we went to this openhouse in palo altO.. we had NO INTENTION of buying it.. we just wanted to see how it looked inside.. cuz it was like a 3 million house? we just wanted to see what made it sO good to cost that much.. turns out.. not much. haha, i would still perfer my house over that one - ANY DAY. yeP.. but there are nice ones.. we saw one in los altos that goes to monta vista too.. it was a REALLY NICe house.. but it was on foothill eway.. and its loud.. and yea.. just the lil things always get in the way >_< or the houses would juss be waAay too expensive. i cant believe the prices of houses these days! so freaking crazy..

yea so i dunno.. lalala.. dont realy wanna think about it i guess. im tired todays >< haha.. i wanna gO EAT! tho im not hungry.. i wanna sleep.. tho im not sleepy. im juss lazy. hahaha.. i guess ill gO now. bye guys!

Regina.6:21 PM

Sunday, October 20
okay so i was gona add a shit load of ppl to my links.. and i added a couple.. and i was like.. FUCK THIS, theres too many of them! hahaha.. dADAMN everyone has a freaking xanga doode. like the most RANDOMEST ppl. its hellah weird xP

haha anyways.. i dont like my blog anymore =[ i dunno what to do about it either.. maybe i should move to xanga? but then i duNno. i think blogs better than xanga. i juss dont like how MY blog looks. anyone wanna fix it up for me? =]

lalala.. im home like all alone.. well my sisters upstairs but shes sleeping.. its almost 12 too. damn.. im so FREAKING lazy now >_< sux0rs like a bitch man. all i do is eat and sleep. imma get FAT. i havent even TOUCHED hw.. sighhh.. and i have so much =[ yO necesito un cafe. my spanish SUCKS. hahaha.. yea i wanna go float building today =[ but my brothers home so imma spend the day with him.. or i was PLANNING to spend the day with him.. but like.. hes at work i think? gRr.. so i guess i might go. i juss like totally contradicted myself right there. hahaha, DEREK GOT HIS LICENSE! hahaha.. isnt he the first? i thinK so.. damn.. thats so exciting. we're all growing up =[ it sucks somewhat. i wish i was still a kid.. no worries..

why must life challenge us? =/ we're all gonna die anyway!! so why cant we just live a happy life.. sure itd get boring.. but we'd be happy.. lalala.. i miss my baybe =[ siighhh.. i havent talked to him since FRIDAY. friday after 4th to be exact.. sniffsniff.. i saw him for like ONE SECOND at chinese school tho :D that made my day.. haha.. but then i feel asleep that night.. and i feel asleep last nite.. and he wasnt on when i was on.. and hes not on now.. gRr >_< im going crazy. crazy crazy crazy just thinking about you baybe.. going crazy crazy crazy.. heehee, that song still r0x0rs.

no ones online right now.. err.. no ones talking to me i mean. hahaha reginas a loser >_< its 12pm doode.. where is everybody? sigh.. i guess imma do hw now.. oR watch tv.. or sleep some more. call me if ya need me guys.. illprolly be home doing nothing. byebye!

Regina.11:56 AM

Saturday, October 19
i stole this from angela heehee.. it makes me giGgle ;D

natural highs
* Falling in love.
* Laughing so hard your face hurts.
* A hot shower.
* No lines at the Super Walmart.
* A special glance.
* Getting mail.
* Taking a drive on a pretty road.
* Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
* Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
* Hot towels out of the dryer.
* Walking out of your last final.
* Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
* Chocolate milkshake.
* A long distance phone call.
* Getting invited to a dance.
* A bubble bath.
* Giggling.
* A good conversation.
* A care package.
* The beach.
* Finding a $20 bill in your coat from last winter.
* Laughing at yourself.
* Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
* Running through sprinklers.
* Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
* Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
* Laughing at an inside joke.
* Friends.
* Falling in love for the first time.
* Slumber parties.
* Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
* Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
* Your first kiss.
* Being part of a team.
* Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
* Playing with a new puppy.
* Late night talks with your roommate that keep you from sleeping.
* Having someone play with your hair.
* Sweet dreams.
* Hot chocolate.
* Road trips with friends
* Swinging on swings.
* Watching a good movie cuddled up on a couch with someone you love.
* Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and drinking eggnog.
* Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing alone without feeling stupid.
* Going to a really good concert.
* Getting butterflies in your stomach every time you see that one person.
* Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
* Winning a really competitive game.
* Making chocolate chip cookies!
* Having your friends send you homemade cookies!
* Spending time with close friends!
* Running through the fountains with your friends.
* Riding a bike downhill.
* The feeling after running a few miles - an accomplishment!
* The feeling you get the first time you step on stage.
* Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends...
* Holding hands with someone you care about.
* Wearing your boyfriend's shirt that still smells like his cologne.
* Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
* Discovering that love is unconditional and stronger than time.
* Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
* Hugging the person you love.
* Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.
* Kisses on your forehead from the first and only boy you have ever loved.
* Watching the sunrise.
* Getting out of bed every morning and thanking God for another beautiful day.


some of my own ;)
* stargazing
* someone reassuring you that they care when you feel like they've stopped
* getting a phone call from someone you haven't talked to in a long time
* sitting in front of a fire on a cold day
* watching an inspirational movie
* smiling and not being able to stop
* singing
* listening to song you used to love and haven't heard in ages
* sitting around and having a good time just.. talking
* having a purpose
* unconditional love and knowing that it exists
* making cookies during the holidays
* drinking something hot and feeling all warm inside on a cold day
* surprises
* watching the sunset
* worshipping with all you have, like you have nothing to lose
* jamming
* doing something you haven't done since you were a kid
* being a kid
* holiday season
* realizing that everything's going to be okay
* pillow fights
* finding out that you've won something
* listening to good music
* finally finishing a project
* waterfights on a hot summer day
* making plans for your future while reminiscing about the past with your closest friends =)
* making a scrapbook
* beautiful fresh flowers
* being competitive when playing even the dumbest games
* finally seeing an old friend and talking again "just like old times"
* eating ice cream
* having someone look up to you
* when someone knows exactly how you're feeling and what you're thinking without having to say a word
* taking a hot shower when you're stressed
* going out to lunch
* going out to dinner
* going on retreats
* making someone's day
* having someone make your day
* helping someone
* having someone tell you that you've truly made a difference in their lives
* having someone tell you that they love you and appreciate you
* having someone tell you that you'll be friends forever and mean it


Regina.10:10 PM

Which Avril Lavigne Song Are You?

hMm.. today.. i didnt do much. hahaha i went to work.. went to volunteer.. steph came today.. and then we were suppose to go to float building.. but it got cancelled =[ so we went to valleyfair instead.. to shop for hc dresses.. when none of us (shan, steph and me) are going to.. yet.. hahaha well i dunno if im going. so i gues that sorta includes me too? haha and they are on a mission to find dates. yeP.. but the hc dress thing didnt turn out so well cuz we all left the mall empty handed.. cept for steph who bought her sister earrings.. haha and yea.. i felt like shit. i tried on this really cute dress at rampage.. cept it looked like shit on me. then i saw another cute dress at forever.. which looked good on shan.. but again looked like crap on me.. then i found this tube black one.. but it was short so it made my legs look really realy fat. >_< gosh. i hate myself. hahaha. and getting ready for a dance is the best part.. GROWL.

everyones going to hc this year. how gay, no one went last year! hahaha.. lets see.. i just found out JUSTINS going!! thanks justin.. i feel so special that you TOLD me. *ahem* then.. eri and date.. ((not mentioning dates cuz i dunno if they want me tOo.. haha)) uMm.. tony and date.. justin and date.. paul and date.. i think peter and them are going? steph chien and date ;D steph lyu WILL have a date. so will steph ou.. i believe. or shes on a mission too.. haha uMm who else?! im forgetting some people.. O YEA. DAN and his date. haha.. uMm.. wait im forgetting some people.. priss and her date.. uMm.. who else?! i duNno.. haha o wells. HAVE FUN GUYS. byebye!

Regina.9:52 PM

Friday, October 18
ooOmmyygooshh.. ive eaten SO MUCH TODAY. i feel like sick.. hahaha.. but i wanted to eat =[ i had MAC AND CHEESE! :D yuM. and yogurt.. buncha the CHICKEN FLAVORED crackers.. a sandwich.. grapes.. and some bread.. AHHH>. i feel FAT. haha and i wanna sleep! yea i was plamnning to write this lOoong thing.. but im too full and too lazy xP byebye!

Regina.4:57 PM

Thursday, October 17
i finally get a chance to write! haha.. or type.. watever.. its THURSDAY that means tomorrows FRIDAY. yay and nay. haha because that means the weekend is coming up.. and that means i get sleep.. and float building! im sO excited bout our float.. its gonna be so AWESOME. goOosh. haha but like.. fridays always seem to be bad.. or like they turn out bad or something. i dunNo.. it sux0rs. specially cuz of CHINESE SCHOOL. damns. and i cant ditch anymore this year because if you have more than 5 absenses, you dont get to go on to the next grade xP how gayO. anyways.. im like.. not doing anything tonite. haha i have a lit test tomorrow.. which i should study for.. spanish test which i never study for.. and thats like it? math hw.. study for biO test next week.. yePyeP. so im juss chilling =] finally. i stayed up late doing my biO lab.. and i dont think i set my alarm.. or i might have turned it off without knowing.. so i overslept.. and i was so tired >< i need to live next to a starbucks so i can have coffee every morning. OO. and then today when i got home.. i made myself an avocadO and turkey sandwich!! like the ones at togos! MMMMM.. it was SOOOOO good. omygosh.. like heaven. hahaha :D theres three things you should know about me..if you dunnO them already.. im STARBUCKS crazy and TOGOS (avocadO and turkey) crazy AND MY BIRTHDAYS IN NOVEMBER! *COF COF COF STEPH OU* hahaha.. juSs kidding bout the last part.. but yea :D im hellah tired yO =[ must get sleep.. must raise grades.. toO many requirements. school SUX0RS man. yePyeP. gosh.. dan, jessica and derek have all turned 16 >< and enoch.. and chris will in like.. 14 days? i dunno. its crazy. and im not even 15 yet =[ I GET RIDES GUYS! :D heehee aiite im outs. bye!!


Regina.5:27 PM

Wednesday, October 16
omygosh.. i was in the car last night.. and write as we were pulling up in the driveway i heard a really pretty unfarmiliar song.. sO here are the lyrics :D haha its a pretty and gOod song.. shes a good singer..

where would you be.martina mcbride
i wonder where your heart is..
cuz it sure dont feel like its here..
sometimes i think you wish
that i would just disappear..
have i got it all wrong..
have you felt this way long?
are you already gone..

do you ever feel lonely
when youre here by my side
does the sound of freedom
echo in your mind..
do you wish you were by youself
or that i was with someone else
anyone else..

where would you be
if you werent here with me?
where would go
if you were single and free
who would you love
would it be me?
where would you be?

its a sad song.. haha but its pretty and she has a really strong voice.. its country thO.. so if you dont mind go d/L it! =]

Regina.6:36 PM

Sunday, October 13
lalala. hi guys. i juss got back from float building.. omygosh our floats is gonna ROCK. its soOo gonna win :D heehee its awesome, seriously. yea.. i juss wanted to say that.. haha i dun feel great.. my heart hurts like a BITCH. but WATEVER. mM.. SURE. tomorrows monday.. then tuesday is school. gayness f0cker. i didnt even get to go out this weekend.. like DO SOMETHING. not like anyone gives a fucking fuck anyway.

Regina.7:25 PM

Saturday, October 12
guess what guys? friday was ANDREAS BIRTHDAY!! sO

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA

haha.. shes finally 15! mM.. anyway.. today sorta sucked.. this past week has pretty much sucked. friday sucked big time.. i juss came home.. lied in bed.. started to think and i feel asleep.. i didnt even brush my teeth.. wash my face or anything. i was so emotionally and physically drained. sigh.. not much has been going on.. me and steph went to gO help hc floats.. but when we got there they were done for the day.. so we might go tomorrow. i wanna see tuck everlasting and i wanna see sweet home alabama agin.. yePsyePs. heehee, cute movies. good song: mine all mine shEdaizy. yePs.. ive been feeling like shit physically lately. i think im sick? but im not sure. haha ive been getting constant stomach aches that hurt like CRAZY. headaches, today my EYE hurts.. ive been sneezing like crazy.. my nose has been running, but then again i have allergies. i dunno.. watever. imma go, laters

Regina.10:34 PM

Wednesday, October 9
hi guys hi guys hi guys! i havent been online for a while.. er.. not much anyway. my dad sez i cant gO online until friday.. or at least have dsl in my rooM.. cuz our routers all fxcked.. and growl. yea.. and last nite i couldnt go online so i was HARDCORE studying for my math test.. and hes like.. since yur so focused without yur internet.. maybe i shouldnt give it back to you at all.. i was like.. nOoOoooo. haha yea sO anyway.. ive also been busy working on dereks present.. haha its his sweet 16 today!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEREK!!

hEehee i hope he had a good day.. anyways.. hMm.. what else to say? i guess not much, i got lots of hw.. and stuff to dO and stuff. haha bye guys!

Regina.5:05 PM

Tuesday, October 8
hey regina... jeezes. u guys don't do much in writing for pub eh? ahaha i like ur new template. ^__^ don't change it... it's COOL!

Anonymous.7:58 PM

Monday, October 7
heellllooooo.. im in writing for pub right now.. im very bored. alice is sitting next to be finishing her biO lab.. i forgot to put a title on mine.. hahaha my bad.. and monicas next to me checking out ppl on the internet. haha i found out today that dahns brother plays football! i waS like.. WOAH! hahahaha.. okay yea. i need coffee, can youtell? craving for starbucks.. not really craving.. more like, NEEDING! sigh. 7-11 maybe this lunch then.. i dunno. headaches.. bye!

Regina.12:17 PM

hola hola.. mMm.. its 133AM right now.. i juss finished my math hw and my biO lab ((FINALLY)) and i still need to do my writing for pub but im too lazy >< so i think ill do it tomorrow during TA hoping that she wont have anything for me already. im not that tired thO.. my body kinda aches.. but im not like.. falling asleep for some weird reason. haha no ones online. andreas away.. angelas away.. allies oN ((alban)) ronalds away.. june hOs on.. and my bro. haha.. sO now im juss sitting here listening to boyzIImen.. i <3 their songs.. haha they're a good group. lalala.. i hope i wont be like dead tomorrow.. haha i dun wanna go to school >< but i miSs my baybe a loooottt. sigh. O YEAS. ill blog about what i was gona write about on friday now..

so friday steph lyu chris and i went to the football game ((daDAMN we kicked lynbrooks ASS - well JV anyway.. haha and i thought MV was bad.. )) and it was sorta boring.. but then someone called out "hey G!" over and over and then this guy walks by and says "fine dont answer me" and i spin around.. and there he is.. standing there.. ANDY CHIANG. hahaha.. omygoSHh.. he looked DIFFERENT i could hardly recognize him.. at first i wasnt sure it was him.. but when he started talking i knew it was him. hes changed.. on the outside and on the inside toO.. and then later on i saw all these tinO ppl.. and i couldnt even remember their names. i felt sO horrible. then.. when i was sitting down with steph and michael liu.. this guy comes up to me and says.. "are you regina?" and im like "yea.. dot dot dot.. " and it turns out to be one of my best friends from elementary school.. he too looked SO different. my goSh.. sometimes it hurts.. to juss look back and see all the friendships that ive lost.. and all the friends that i never kept in touch with.. when we promised each other we would NO MATTER WHAT WOULD HAPPEN. and its like.. what happened to that? and at the time.. all you could think about was the pain and the promises.. and then yOu dont remember aftera while.. and everything juss starts to fade.. i miSs my old friends.. i know id be a totally different person than i am now thO.. but i miss them.. and i sorta miss who i was.. but im also glad that ive met the ppl i did over the past 4 years.. and everything happens for a reason - i am who i am today for a reason. i was jus in the car with steph and diana.. and they were saying how its been sucha long time since we met each other but its only been 4 years.. but i sed how it seems like i grew up with you guys.. that ive known them forever. it doesnt feel much differnet i guess.. but i do miss my childhOod friends.. the ppl i moved away from.. they were the ones that TRULY know ME.. I GREW UP WITH THEM! and i cant believe how much i let myself miss.. sigh.. so very SAD. but i hope all of them are well.. i found out friday that one of my friends has a BABY. just last week was released from the hospital.. and i missed out on that.. i didnt even KNOW. >< sux0rs.

((o.. and juss to make it interesting.. shes a freshman)) i guess i cant do anything now tho huh? juss prevent it from happening agin.. or try. goSh i miss them.. but nO worries.. i love the friends i have now =]

Regina.1:48 AM

Sunday, October 6
yAayyy.. finally templates done. haha that took.. a WHILE. i dunno if i really like it.. but o wells - it took forever. haha anyways.. hey guys =] whattsuuppp.. i have so much shit to dO today.. and im juss sitting here.. blogging. haha hEy btw, if ANYONE wants to help me on my biOAP lab DONT HESITATE!! o yeas.. does anyone know when youth court it?? hopefully it hasnt started yet >< s i g h . i wish i had a car!! growwwllll.. i need something to do.. i need a break! shit.. i was juss gonna O YEAS. my dsl is being sO gay >< er not my dsl, my ROUTER. gosh.. so like all of us have to take turns using the dsl cuz our router wont cooperate.. but only 5 more days of that shit.. my bros coming home. haha okay well imma gO eat now.. laters

Regina.12:15 PM

Saturday, October 5
imma blog really quick.. i have lots to say but ill write about it some other time.. todays ANGELAS BIRTHDAY!! hapPy birthday babe!! we miSs you =[ hope yur taking good care of yourself!! we love yOus =]

freaks. REGINA roX0rs y0ur box0rs - like DUH. sheesh. ;D

Regina.11:31 PM

Friday, October 4
idiots. everyone knows that ANDREA RoX0rz your box0rz!

Anonymous.5:27 PM

JON ROX0Rz your box0rz

Regina.9:20 AM

hello. blogs are gay. everyone should stop blogging because its hella stupid and its a waste of time. this is regina chan and i think blogs are gay. gay gay gay...gay like i am. yes thats right im stupid and so i hate blogging but im blogging anyway. everything sucks. blah blah blah im in TA right now..AGIN. i want STARBUCKS. my dsl went down again last night so i had to leave my cool kick ass gou gou derek =[ he is so awesome. he's probably the coolest person on earth ever. there is absolutely nobody better than him. DEREK ROXORS JOOR BOXORS. FUXOR. DEREK IS GOD!!!!!!

Regina.9:00 AM

Thursday, October 3
ehehehehe ur funny regina. ^__^

Anonymous.9:11 PM

hahaha HI CONNIE! i blogged in yours just now saying how you never blog in mine anymore and then BOO! connie blogs! ;D heeheehee. how awesome. ill blog agin in yours later, but yea.. we never talk anymore =[ sO sad. hahaha, member SCIENCE?! shOot.. that was so awesome. our rocket thingie.. and how my grade was depending on it and how if i didnt get an A then i couldnt go to the grad dance! hahahaha.. that was the fun times. STARBUCKS baybe :D

anyway.. im in TA right now.. not doing anything. i should be finishing up my bio hw but im not. i had sucha bad day yesterday =[ and my dsl wasnt working either.. sO yea.. it was pretty crazy.. no AIM all night for regina. haha. yea i bombed my math test yesterday.. i really dunno wat to do. i have a 81 in the class (before the bombed test) and i dunno wat to do.. i dunno if i should stay and get a tutor.. or juss take alg2 and take trig in the summer. taking alg2 is the easy way out.. and then i can get my 4.o that i would die for.. but it juss seems like im cheating myself.. and that im juss slacking off.. AGIN. and i dun wanna slack off anymore. but i really dunno which one to take.. someone tellme what to do!! please? i dun even know if i can raise my 81 to an A.. stupid lyuser has a 89 >< gosh. i have making decisions. sO gay. so yesterday i felt like shit.. and then i bitched at my mom.. and she bitched at me.. and then i didnt want to go to art class and we bitched some more.. and i didnt end up going.. which was pretty cool. so i guess my parents are pretty cool. and theyre just telling me i should juss drop alg2/trig.. but i dunno if i want to ya know? yea and my dads trying to find me a tutor and stuff.. =/ school sux0rs. i only have one more day to decide.. doode.. its freaking cold. brr.. haha okay i think imma go think about what i should do.. gosh.. SUX0RS. =[ have a good day guys =]

Regina.9:01 AM